we just wanna know if this, is this over?
so pretty much i'm in utah.. yay!
i was so excited to come and now i think i'd rather have stayed home.. i think i'd rather be in my own bed right now with my batbear and where my friends can be there for me.
its hard being here with so many memories of what happened exactly a year ago. one full year, we didnt even last a full year. must've been a joke to think we'd last forever. we thought we'd be the ones to make it through, the ones that everyone would be jealous of cause we lasted that long.
love i just a hoax so forget anything that you've heard
i dont like this. this whole being single buisness. this whole only having one guy to persue and knowing theres no chance with him thing. this whole regretting what i did to lose him thing. this whole not having any control over what happens next thing. i've pretty much done everything there is to do. nothing i can do will change the fact that i'm alone.
there really is no one there for me. no one to think of and make me smile. no one to day dream about. no one to hold me and tell me everything is how its meant to be. no one to talk to till 3 in the morning.. no one to fall asleep talking to. no one for me to bring back a bag full of snow for. no one to wait for anxiously. no one to make wonderful plans with. no one to reasure that theres someone to feel the same as i do. no one to be completely honest with. no one to know me like he did. no one to be able to tell when something is wrong just by the way i say hello.
can i be done with the aloneness? please.
love me.
i was so excited to come and now i think i'd rather have stayed home.. i think i'd rather be in my own bed right now with my batbear and where my friends can be there for me.
its hard being here with so many memories of what happened exactly a year ago. one full year, we didnt even last a full year. must've been a joke to think we'd last forever. we thought we'd be the ones to make it through, the ones that everyone would be jealous of cause we lasted that long.
love i just a hoax so forget anything that you've heard
i dont like this. this whole being single buisness. this whole only having one guy to persue and knowing theres no chance with him thing. this whole regretting what i did to lose him thing. this whole not having any control over what happens next thing. i've pretty much done everything there is to do. nothing i can do will change the fact that i'm alone.
there really is no one there for me. no one to think of and make me smile. no one to day dream about. no one to hold me and tell me everything is how its meant to be. no one to talk to till 3 in the morning.. no one to fall asleep talking to. no one for me to bring back a bag full of snow for. no one to wait for anxiously. no one to make wonderful plans with. no one to reasure that theres someone to feel the same as i do. no one to be completely honest with. no one to know me like he did. no one to be able to tell when something is wrong just by the way i say hello.
can i be done with the aloneness? please.
love me.