James unrustled
It's interesting to me the things that catch my attention these days. It's certainly unlike any of the things that have caught my attention most of my life. In fact I have been so effected by greed, and sense of apathy of most people, the common ignorance of self centered worship humans celebrate in my years that it's a new and like almost surreal feeling to actual feel like something might have shifted and maybe there is another side to people. Or at least some people, ANYONE who isn't just out to serve themselves. Let me tell you I am no innocent in these regards. In fact I just helped myself to an entire Snickers bar with almonds and it was beyond gratifying. But people just seem to take whatever it is in any moment that they need regardless of who is hurt by their actions. But lately I have focused on this about 15% of the time as opposed to 90% of the time. I think for two reasons. One, I am working on accepting that not everyone will choose to find the same priorities in their lives as I find in mine. Two, I've actually encountered like minded people who struggle with the same shit, lament over their place in goodness while still being flawed, and feel this rapture of grief for the failure in our collective acknowledgment. I tend to spend a lot of time with the types most would call hippies, and while they spill their guts and it's all mumbo-jumbo and tom foolery to my ears, I actually feel like I;m on more common ground when they simply discuss our responsibility to each other as humans. I've been keeping this journal now since 1999 (14 yrs?) wow and I think I've talked aboiut that the entire time. So, yeah it's really funny though how some of these types are so quick to tell you how they function on some higher plane and are so "expanded" or whatever and they are like some of the most incredibly unhappy people you could ever meet. I do however have one friend who actually is, if you fucking ask me, the true definition of enlightened. The guy is in a perpetual good mood. And while you might cringe as he tells you about the 8 circuit model and judge him, this guy thinks so much about everyone else's feelings, but is never confused about his own, and yeah... sure, maybe it takes him three hours to start his daily functions you know after he checks his ethermail, but the dude is like the happiest person I have ever known. He has light beams shooting out of his frontal lobe and stuff, like cannot be taken down by anything less than a ton of bricks. Which as you may have guessed weighs an actual ton. So it just goes to show you that when he is being silly and quotes Al Pacino in Scarface saying, "Take it easy!" there's actually like several layers of true advice behind it and you only see that he's telling you those extra things if you look for it. Otherwise, you might just get the wrong idea and easily think he's just some dumb kid who is trying to be cool, not a genius sending you a message.
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IT'S TRUE!
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IT'S TRUE!