and this quiz pops up...
[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to? He now works with me (sorta) 1st poly
[02] have you ever been given roses? yes
[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie? Three of Hearts - corny, but, hey
[04] How many times have you honestly fallen deeply in love: when I fall, ever since I have been adult, it is deep
[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? No. I don't believe in 1 soulmate.
[06] What's your current problem? transport/time issues
[07] Have you ever had your heart broken? oh yes
[08] Had a Long Distance Relationship? well *blush* I do now.
[09] Do you believe in this saying-What goes around comes around? yes
[10] Do you want to get married? I am - marry sweeties/dearlings ( I like the term- borrowed :))? I don't think that would be possible due to past heartbreaks they endured
[11] How many kids do you want to have? furry? infinite - non furry - zip, zero, nada
[12] Whats your favorite color(s)? green, orange, red, black - bright
[13] Who was the last person you held hands with? Today? Awfulhorrid and Foxwit
[14] Do you believe in love at first sight? Maybe not first sight, but blindsided quickly, oh yes...
[15] Would you kiss the last person you kissed? Oh yes, Please? He's more than six hours away....
[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender? 15-16ish
[17] Do you still love your ex? yes, but I am not right for him (1st poly)
[18] Do you know someone who likes you? yes...*dragging foot behind her - blush*
[19] Do you like/love anyone new? ? oh YES 4/4/08
[20] Do they know you like/love them? yes, though it wasn't easy....I was afraid I would chase him away
I've been away from home for a few days. Much has happened. I feel like I am glowing, and people were coming up to me today that usually don't. Maybe an invisible flame is radiating from me. And the thing is, I just have trouble putting down in words what I am feeling/thinking/feeling *shiver....deep breath*
I still see his face, his waterfall of soft brown hair, and brilliant blue eyes. Touched with brown, as mine are (I'm hazel), except I have never seen eyes like his. So tall, and with a kilt. His smile fills me with wonder and his touch ... *indrawn breath* I would like a good current picture, with your hair down :)
When he left today, part of my heart went with him. The joy tempered with the sorrow - he needed to go home to his sweeties and his rulers (I sent catnip home with him as a bribe to get in their good graces). I needed to go to work. I played hooky on Sunday- and those of you who know me well enough...that I don't do. I am very responsible...but not Sunday. Oh, no, responsibility flew out the window.
Through my tears, I saw the rainbow. Great joy is often tempered with sorrow -otherwise it is hard to recognize its true beauty. It is an odd thing, being poly, talking about Foxwit and Nezmaster, and communicating about his sweeties, and despite being in each others arms, still missing them as well. Knowing that they would want us to be happy.
A friend I met at GenCon in 2004, I think that was the year. A lab rabbit with buttons that I had to talk to. We became friends over LJ, and had not met in person since. Similar music tastes (many, many similarities we have I know now)cat lover, Rabbit, gamer. I honestly didn't know his age at the time - I was off by a few years - he look younger to me now than he did then. And we talked about our kitties. He sent me a letter and his phone number during one of my darkest times- the fact that the possibility was there meant a lot. I never took him up on it, but the offer was there. I knew I sent Christmas cards to him. And I remember him losing Pixel, and I had been there in spirit. He was there for me when Heiyu went to the catnip fields beyond. I remember joking that I wanted a snow leopard, and he said there were none on Amazon. A few days later a box showed up at my door. A tiny snow leopard plush kitten was in the box and the message -"Well, I was wrong. Apparently Amazon does have snow leopards".
I have Christian and pagan tendencies. Not trained per se, no, I go by instinct. New Years day, in calligraphy, I wrote a prayer/spell. Surrounded by feathers I had gathered from birds, shells and stones from Seneca Lake, fire candles and rocks panned or gathered elsewhere for the way they felt, I burned this small scroll, wishing for more love in my life and for more positive energy as well. I dropped it into the goblet and prayed, as I burned the scroll, holding it as long as I could. I asked for cleansing and joy as well. I made a wish...
and he came true. I do not coerce, I didn't know what that would bring, if it would bring anything. It was my New Years Wish/Prayer. Resolutions, no, other than to be a better person.I didn't know what would happen - I forgot that spell prayer, until I was drifting off to sleep. As we were drifting to sleep, I told him of what I had done, and he kissed me.
He didn't come with expectations, at the very least he would have been there for a friend - and that alone would have been wonderful. I think there just might have been hopes. I know Merseine vouched for me to his sweetie. Thank you. Thank you for sharing. I really cannot put in words how I feel about this, other than profoundly grateful. I just wish I wasn't six hours away. But I am not his only, and that is good. He has his sweeties - I know a little about them - not alot, other than Merseine (go figure :) ) Thank you for the care and feeding of the Scottish Woof Hound. It might get slightly modified. I even had/asked him to do his exercise. Caretaker I am, fire and water. And he matches me in that, elementally. I'm not sure what animal I am anymore, if I am still Kitsune- not cat, but catlike. Not dog, but with canine traits. Spirit of mischief, that's there too. But I definitely like dogs :)
In three days, I fell hard. I was afraid of scaring him away. Those three words...I whispered it and he half woke after I said it. He didn't hear it, from what I understand, but he wanted to know what was wrong. And I found out he was afraid of the same thing. He had slipped the day before, apparently twice. I caught the one - I was thinking that it was a habit, but he changed what he was saying to like. He didn't want to scare me off.
I love you, Awfulhorrid. Thank you for being so wonderful, for being you. I don't say those words lightly, not with how I am feeling them. I do love my friends, but Philios (sp?) is not the emotion I have for you, though it is entwined in it.
Thank you for coming into my life in this way. Thank you for coming to visit a silly and strange woman and for saying all that you did. You have my promise. I will do my best to keep it.
You are wonderful. My birthday came a week early.
I hope you don't mind me sharing.
[02] have you ever been given roses? yes
[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie? Three of Hearts - corny, but, hey
[04] How many times have you honestly fallen deeply in love: when I fall, ever since I have been adult, it is deep
[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? No. I don't believe in 1 soulmate.
[06] What's your current problem? transport/time issues
[07] Have you ever had your heart broken? oh yes
[08] Had a Long Distance Relationship? well *blush* I do now.
[09] Do you believe in this saying-What goes around comes around? yes
[10] Do you want to get married? I am - marry sweeties/dearlings ( I like the term- borrowed :))? I don't think that would be possible due to past heartbreaks they endured
[11] How many kids do you want to have? furry? infinite - non furry - zip, zero, nada
[12] Whats your favorite color(s)? green, orange, red, black - bright
[13] Who was the last person you held hands with? Today? Awfulhorrid and Foxwit
[14] Do you believe in love at first sight? Maybe not first sight, but blindsided quickly, oh yes...
[15] Would you kiss the last person you kissed? Oh yes, Please? He's more than six hours away....
[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender? 15-16ish
[17] Do you still love your ex? yes, but I am not right for him (1st poly)
[18] Do you know someone who likes you? yes...*dragging foot behind her - blush*
[19] Do you like/love anyone new? ? oh YES 4/4/08
[20] Do they know you like/love them? yes, though it wasn't easy....I was afraid I would chase him away
I've been away from home for a few days. Much has happened. I feel like I am glowing, and people were coming up to me today that usually don't. Maybe an invisible flame is radiating from me. And the thing is, I just have trouble putting down in words what I am feeling/thinking/feeling *shiver....deep breath*
I still see his face, his waterfall of soft brown hair, and brilliant blue eyes. Touched with brown, as mine are (I'm hazel), except I have never seen eyes like his. So tall, and with a kilt. His smile fills me with wonder and his touch ... *indrawn breath* I would like a good current picture, with your hair down :)
When he left today, part of my heart went with him. The joy tempered with the sorrow - he needed to go home to his sweeties and his rulers (I sent catnip home with him as a bribe to get in their good graces). I needed to go to work. I played hooky on Sunday- and those of you who know me well enough...that I don't do. I am very responsible...but not Sunday. Oh, no, responsibility flew out the window.
Through my tears, I saw the rainbow. Great joy is often tempered with sorrow -otherwise it is hard to recognize its true beauty. It is an odd thing, being poly, talking about Foxwit and Nezmaster, and communicating about his sweeties, and despite being in each others arms, still missing them as well. Knowing that they would want us to be happy.
A friend I met at GenCon in 2004, I think that was the year. A lab rabbit with buttons that I had to talk to. We became friends over LJ, and had not met in person since. Similar music tastes (many, many similarities we have I know now)cat lover, Rabbit, gamer. I honestly didn't know his age at the time - I was off by a few years - he look younger to me now than he did then. And we talked about our kitties. He sent me a letter and his phone number during one of my darkest times- the fact that the possibility was there meant a lot. I never took him up on it, but the offer was there. I knew I sent Christmas cards to him. And I remember him losing Pixel, and I had been there in spirit. He was there for me when Heiyu went to the catnip fields beyond. I remember joking that I wanted a snow leopard, and he said there were none on Amazon. A few days later a box showed up at my door. A tiny snow leopard plush kitten was in the box and the message -"Well, I was wrong. Apparently Amazon does have snow leopards".
I have Christian and pagan tendencies. Not trained per se, no, I go by instinct. New Years day, in calligraphy, I wrote a prayer/spell. Surrounded by feathers I had gathered from birds, shells and stones from Seneca Lake, fire candles and rocks panned or gathered elsewhere for the way they felt, I burned this small scroll, wishing for more love in my life and for more positive energy as well. I dropped it into the goblet and prayed, as I burned the scroll, holding it as long as I could. I asked for cleansing and joy as well. I made a wish...
and he came true. I do not coerce, I didn't know what that would bring, if it would bring anything. It was my New Years Wish/Prayer. Resolutions, no, other than to be a better person.I didn't know what would happen - I forgot that spell prayer, until I was drifting off to sleep. As we were drifting to sleep, I told him of what I had done, and he kissed me.
He didn't come with expectations, at the very least he would have been there for a friend - and that alone would have been wonderful. I think there just might have been hopes. I know Merseine vouched for me to his sweetie. Thank you. Thank you for sharing. I really cannot put in words how I feel about this, other than profoundly grateful. I just wish I wasn't six hours away. But I am not his only, and that is good. He has his sweeties - I know a little about them - not alot, other than Merseine (go figure :) ) Thank you for the care and feeding of the Scottish Woof Hound. It might get slightly modified. I even had/asked him to do his exercise. Caretaker I am, fire and water. And he matches me in that, elementally. I'm not sure what animal I am anymore, if I am still Kitsune- not cat, but catlike. Not dog, but with canine traits. Spirit of mischief, that's there too. But I definitely like dogs :)
In three days, I fell hard. I was afraid of scaring him away. Those three words...I whispered it and he half woke after I said it. He didn't hear it, from what I understand, but he wanted to know what was wrong. And I found out he was afraid of the same thing. He had slipped the day before, apparently twice. I caught the one - I was thinking that it was a habit, but he changed what he was saying to like. He didn't want to scare me off.
I love you, Awfulhorrid. Thank you for being so wonderful, for being you. I don't say those words lightly, not with how I am feeling them. I do love my friends, but Philios (sp?) is not the emotion I have for you, though it is entwined in it.
Thank you for coming into my life in this way. Thank you for coming to visit a silly and strange woman and for saying all that you did. You have my promise. I will do my best to keep it.
You are wonderful. My birthday came a week early.
I hope you don't mind me sharing.