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i thought i was ready to go home. i dont know where home is anymore. i love living here. the people here are great. well most of them, some of them are just dicks that dont think before they open their mouths but for the most part they are wonderful people. when i go back to new jersey i really do not think i want to stay with my mom and i know it sounds bad but things are always so fucked between us. it may seem like im the selfish one, or atleast that is how she makes it seem. my parents split a year ago and my mom got a boyfriend quicker than she kicked my dad. i love my dad and before they split up we never really got along and i would always side with my mom and talk with her, but now i talk more with my dad and find myself wanting to stay with him more. whenever i am at my moms she is either never there because of work or because she is out, with her boyfriend. dont get me wrong her boyfriend is nice and all but he just bugs me . he really likes to judge me and make decisions for my family. he makes comments and little remarks that piss me off and my mom knows that i am not fond of him and she hates that, but my brother does not really like him either. like she says you cant like everyone. well everytime he tries to play dad and tell me piercings are gross and i will regret them later on i just cant stand it and i get pissed and than my mom sides with him and gets mad at me.. honestly i just couldnt stand living there. i liked staying with my dad and his girlfriend.
so my mom says to me that we are going to go on our last "family" vacation. just her my brother, sister and i. well she ended up not having enough money for a tropical vacation which is FINE with me i do not care were we went. we could have gone camping and i would be satisfied. it would just be a time for all of us to hang because we havent seen eachother all together in months. my sister is at college and i live in california now. its hard. so i get the call from my mom a little while ago talking about how instead of the tropical vacation we are just going to the jersey shore, where we have gone on vacation since i was 2. its old and boring. especially the one where she gets the house...no boardwalk..a little arcade and like 5 shitty rides. no clubs no nothing. and of course now its not going to be a family vacation because the first we she is going to have all of her friends from the bar over. i love them but they get to be a bit much and now i know i wont get time with my mom and brother and sister. so i talked to my brother about it and he sort of felt the same way and than i talked to my sister about it and she was just like oh alright. so my brother and sister told my mom about it and she called and bitched me out..the main reasson why i didnt wnat to talk to her about in the first place. but yeah ive been so frustrated the past couple days and softball is over and i have nothing to do with myself i need a job so i dont punch somebody in the face.
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by the way i love micaela.
so my mom says to me that we are going to go on our last "family" vacation. just her my brother, sister and i. well she ended up not having enough money for a tropical vacation which is FINE with me i do not care were we went. we could have gone camping and i would be satisfied. it would just be a time for all of us to hang because we havent seen eachother all together in months. my sister is at college and i live in california now. its hard. so i get the call from my mom a little while ago talking about how instead of the tropical vacation we are just going to the jersey shore, where we have gone on vacation since i was 2. its old and boring. especially the one where she gets the house...no boardwalk..a little arcade and like 5 shitty rides. no clubs no nothing. and of course now its not going to be a family vacation because the first we she is going to have all of her friends from the bar over. i love them but they get to be a bit much and now i know i wont get time with my mom and brother and sister. so i talked to my brother about it and he sort of felt the same way and than i talked to my sister about it and she was just like oh alright. so my brother and sister told my mom about it and she called and bitched me out..the main reasson why i didnt wnat to talk to her about in the first place. but yeah ive been so frustrated the past couple days and softball is over and i have nothing to do with myself i need a job so i dont punch somebody in the face.
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by the way i love micaela.