Not a "people person"
I have been really unhappy with my job lately. Basically, my job is to direct people and help them with any problems or issues they might have with any of the following offices at this college: Admissions, Financial Aid, Business, Student Services, and the Assistant Dean. I am the secretary in the main office of this whole campus. I am the face of PRCC Hattieburg Center. I HATE IT. I have always known I am not a people person. I have always been somewhat anti-social, and very shy. As people I work with have told me on countless occasions, I seem very stuck up at first due to this fact. I assure you though I am not stuck up or snobby. It just takes me a while to warm up to anyone. I have a very thick barrier. I have always been this way, and have actually gotten much better than I used to be. But this is me. I like me, and I am not going to change. So this presents a problem with my job.
When I took this job, I, of course, did not understand what all it entailed. I did not realize I would be the person everyone comes to, the person at the front desk of the main office of the whole school. Now, if I had known this, I would have taken the job anyways, merely for the fantastic benefits I receive as a state employee. But I would not have been nearly as gung-ho about it.
Nor did I realize when I took this job that I would be working in an office with two women who have the biggest rivalry of anyone here. It is just the three of us, and I am constantly in the middle of their bullshit. It is all totally passive aggressive and immature, and I hate it because I am always the one stuck with the consequences. Everyone here knows about this rivalry. Everyone pities me for having to put up with it. But nothing is ever done about it.
I realized something horrible about myself: I don't want to help these people. Outside of work, I do feel a desire to help people often, but when I come to work, and students come in with their mind-numbingly stupid questions that I am asked 1,000 times a day, I simply cease to give a rats ass. Am I a bad person? Probably. But I can't make myself care. What I want is my own private little office where I can do paper- or computer work at a leisurely pace all day, with no costumers or idiots coming in at all hours, to where I have to stop what I am doing and hold their hands through a simple process. Soudns ideal, doesn't it? It does to me. But with what little education I have, I don't have so many options. The opportunity for internal transfer is great here, but I have yet to hear of a position become available that I would be suited for. I have been looking online for job openings at the university in town, USM, and there are a couple possibilities. But the idea of changing jobs is realyl scary. I can't be pleased, can I?? Besides, getting a job at USM is extremely difficult unless you know someone, or so I hear.
I am pretty compotant with computer work; I am very, very fast and catch onto things in a snap. But I am HORRIBLE at handling stress and pressure. That's one of the (many) reasons I do not need to work with costumers. When they all start lining up and staring at me impatiently, I lose it. I get really rude and frazzled. I have tried calming myself down, but it never works. I just can't handle stress.
UGH!! OK, not I have that off my mind for the moment, I'm off to think of happier things. :)
When I took this job, I, of course, did not understand what all it entailed. I did not realize I would be the person everyone comes to, the person at the front desk of the main office of the whole school. Now, if I had known this, I would have taken the job anyways, merely for the fantastic benefits I receive as a state employee. But I would not have been nearly as gung-ho about it.
Nor did I realize when I took this job that I would be working in an office with two women who have the biggest rivalry of anyone here. It is just the three of us, and I am constantly in the middle of their bullshit. It is all totally passive aggressive and immature, and I hate it because I am always the one stuck with the consequences. Everyone here knows about this rivalry. Everyone pities me for having to put up with it. But nothing is ever done about it.
I realized something horrible about myself: I don't want to help these people. Outside of work, I do feel a desire to help people often, but when I come to work, and students come in with their mind-numbingly stupid questions that I am asked 1,000 times a day, I simply cease to give a rats ass. Am I a bad person? Probably. But I can't make myself care. What I want is my own private little office where I can do paper- or computer work at a leisurely pace all day, with no costumers or idiots coming in at all hours, to where I have to stop what I am doing and hold their hands through a simple process. Soudns ideal, doesn't it? It does to me. But with what little education I have, I don't have so many options. The opportunity for internal transfer is great here, but I have yet to hear of a position become available that I would be suited for. I have been looking online for job openings at the university in town, USM, and there are a couple possibilities. But the idea of changing jobs is realyl scary. I can't be pleased, can I?? Besides, getting a job at USM is extremely difficult unless you know someone, or so I hear.
I am pretty compotant with computer work; I am very, very fast and catch onto things in a snap. But I am HORRIBLE at handling stress and pressure. That's one of the (many) reasons I do not need to work with costumers. When they all start lining up and staring at me impatiently, I lose it. I get really rude and frazzled. I have tried calming myself down, but it never works. I just can't handle stress.
UGH!! OK, not I have that off my mind for the moment, I'm off to think of happier things. :)