david dear i'm just down the hall/waiting here, not making a sound/david, come around
it's going sooooo slow.
my schedule next semester looks so weird, after being updated for the millionth time. i'll be taking japanese, biology+lab, and two linguistics courses. that adds up to 14 hours.
i keep having the weirdest dreams. most of them involve being dumped/abandoned (common theme for cheche bella), followed by absolute randomness. for instance, i dreamt that a little girl was trying to get toilet paper from my stall in a public bathroom and her mom stuck her head under the stall and spat on my feet. what the fuck?! then last night, in dreamland, i overheard my mother and my oldest brother talking smack about me-- jason was accusing me of looking up big words on the internet to whip out in conversation, and for some reason that caused me to wail and cry.
..i couldn't make this shit up if i tried. well, i guess, unconsciously, i did.
harold won top chef tonight, and i was very pleased. taylor won american idol tonight, and i didn't care.
we're dealing with the distance in the same way. it seems to add a whimsical, childish element that could have been missing. regardless, it feels like things just get better and better. in about two weeks, i have a good day in store.
watched blue lagoon on demand today. what a weird, stupid movie. it made me uncomfortable, then weirdly aroused, and then even more uncomfortable at the thought of being aroused.
jon and allison came into utage yesterday to say hey. it was nice seeing them. they're actually the only people i've seen, aside from hari, since stephen left. that's sad. kristen--movie soon?? or just, something?? ..stephen's weird about me hanging out with guys (except lloyd) and i don't blame him. it's weird getting all this male attention. yesterday, i was actually handed a phone number on the back of an appetizer menu. stephen's not pleased, and neither am i. this is the first time in my relationship history that i've completely lost all interest in other guys. i suppose this is all just a big test. bring it.
my schedule next semester looks so weird, after being updated for the millionth time. i'll be taking japanese, biology+lab, and two linguistics courses. that adds up to 14 hours.
i keep having the weirdest dreams. most of them involve being dumped/abandoned (common theme for cheche bella), followed by absolute randomness. for instance, i dreamt that a little girl was trying to get toilet paper from my stall in a public bathroom and her mom stuck her head under the stall and spat on my feet. what the fuck?! then last night, in dreamland, i overheard my mother and my oldest brother talking smack about me-- jason was accusing me of looking up big words on the internet to whip out in conversation, and for some reason that caused me to wail and cry.
..i couldn't make this shit up if i tried. well, i guess, unconsciously, i did.
harold won top chef tonight, and i was very pleased. taylor won american idol tonight, and i didn't care.
we're dealing with the distance in the same way. it seems to add a whimsical, childish element that could have been missing. regardless, it feels like things just get better and better. in about two weeks, i have a good day in store.
watched blue lagoon on demand today. what a weird, stupid movie. it made me uncomfortable, then weirdly aroused, and then even more uncomfortable at the thought of being aroused.
jon and allison came into utage yesterday to say hey. it was nice seeing them. they're actually the only people i've seen, aside from hari, since stephen left. that's sad. kristen--movie soon?? or just, something?? ..stephen's weird about me hanging out with guys (except lloyd) and i don't blame him. it's weird getting all this male attention. yesterday, i was actually handed a phone number on the back of an appetizer menu. stephen's not pleased, and neither am i. this is the first time in my relationship history that i've completely lost all interest in other guys. i suppose this is all just a big test. bring it.