Dec 28, 2009 21:00
Oh LJ why do I keep you? Isn’t it only for those handy year end reviews? I used to journal like my life was worth recording… which it still is but there is something about popularity that has always made me uneasy. I cut 36 people off my LJ mostly because for the most part, I can’t recall hanging out one : one with various people or wanting to know about their lives in a stalker like fashion without interaction with them in person. If you were ‘kept’ and prefer to leave that’s fine too. This decision to limit the amount of people reading my journal has nothing to do with them/you it is my decision and there isn’t some grand plan as to why.
I’ve been sad for what seems like a very long time. There doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day and I often forget about scheduling me time outside of the things that need my immediate attention. Sound familiar? Yes, we all have the same problems just in differing degrees and the same sad songs are played in different chords in our minds.
As I get older I am feeling more reclusive and private. What really needs to happen is an art residency somewhere for a couple of months where I can create and realize that I am worth sharing and so is my art. Perhaps after I’m done with school I will go away for a while and it’ll be for the better.
A quickie about last term,
School at Marylhurst for the first term was great but it was exceptionally hard. I guess you get what you pay for huh? Still, I’m excited about the program and it feels good doing something I’ve been interested in for so many years.
My grades were:
AT 501 Theories of Counseling & Psychothrpy A
AT 510 Introduction to Art Therapy A-
AT 511 Helping Relationship: AT Technique A-
AT 512 Child Dvlmnt, Psychopathology & AT A-
AT 513 Psychopathology B
this term I'm taking 17 credits. I really want this degree in 2 yrs.
I’m trying to understand myself better because if I can do that then perhaps I’ll understand others as well. Knowing yourself is a messy process for this reason I have been journaling and drawn in my paper journals that much more towards the end of ’09.
Namaste. - Carolina
grades,
being quiet,
bottom of the well,
winter