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RANDOM MEMORIES...........
~Running across Kapiolani Blvd, at 7:30am and taking the short cut by running through the Japanese grave yard.... all those bright perfectly round oranges and tangerines sitting obediently in front of the shiny gravestones with images of the dead somberly looking at the forbidden fruit. There were times that I almost reached down to snatch one of those........ but then I lived so close by that I could not risk the owners of that fruit coming after me.
~After World History class I literally ran down the hall with anticipation because I would be in music class for the next hour. The nuns in the hall looked disapprovingly at me as I ran then skidded just before the doorway of my class. My hair wild and undone but a broad smile on my face.
~My breath caught in my throat as I looked up to see those dark almond eyes that seemed to look straight into my heart. I felt like time had stopped and we were alone. And I wanted to die a beautiful death by drowning into the pool that was him.
~I wore white silk with buttons the shape of roses. I wore the skirt he gave me of black and purple flowers and they moved with every step I took. He held both my little hands in his large but gentle ones. Then we became one in a church in Hilo. We honeymooned at a bed and breakfast in Volcano and made love in the two bedrooms and living room floor.
~We arrived at SFO at about 1AM on 11/15/1994. L was there to meet us in all her exotic beauty. We drove through the city looking for Jeff's place in the Sunset. We got there almost 2 hours later. We did not know the city and got lost a few times. There I was an island girl in awe of the city as we drove through the city streets. Later we learned our way and all looked and felt different. But still wondrous and exciting.
~The first day I reported to work at the shelter in a community in the Bay Area......... I was in awe. I fell in love with my job. I thanked God everyday for this work and the ability to do it. I think about that place and miss it so very much.
~I felt anticipation after the meeting at the shelter. Our car was in the repair shop so my boss was dropping me off the the bus station and I was going to catch the number 52 to the city. Art was in the studio at SFAI waiting for me. We were going to have dinner in North Beach and maybe a movie. If our friend Jeff was at the school, he would drop us at home after, if not, we would catch the Golden Gate transit home. My boss dropped me off, and started to drive off.......... I stepped off the curb and he suddenly lurched back and hit me with his very large white jeep Cherokee. Now when I think about that accident, I marvel at how I did not scream....... I had a calm feeling that swept over me and the words "I am going to die here alone, I hope Art and my family will be alright". After that all that existed is pain......... pain like no other that I have ever had in my life. I never want to experience that again.
~It is very hard being on a wheel chair and wanting to urinate but when you lift yourself up to get on to the toilet seat, you wet your self before you make it. I had many days and nights like that. But I am blessed because unlike some others, that was only a moment in time.
~In the middle of the night I hear the steady sound of his breathing and even that sounds beautiful to me. I nuzzle against his back and feel the warmth of his skin and the lean length of his body against the front of mine. I just want the night never to end.