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GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, because I just really don't know what else to do anymore.
David and I are arguing, a small tift that has been brewing for days now at least, so I cannot say I didn't see it coming.
He is getting restless and discontent again, not with our relationship, but with the lack of additional sexual prowess that comes with it.
After repeated expression of the need to sleep with other women for the past few weeks, and my repeated statement that I won't tolerate it, his frustrations peaked and he started nit picking little fights for the last few days.
So last night he just happened to pick at an already sore spot and got me to bite back, and so now we are fighting.
I know it is ridiculous and will blow over, but the fact remains I sometimes question how much longer I can stand living my life watching someone constantly want something that I cannot give him.
I know he won't be able to have a healthy, happy, family-life marriage like he wants to have with anyone if he also wants to have that sex life on the side. He wants kids, he loves kids, he wants a family - but I don't know of any woman who would subject their family to that sort of life. I just can't bring myself to do it, and I am more patient and willing to comprimise than most on subjects such as these.
I guess he either finds a way to let go of his frustrations and learn to be respectful and have me be the only woman in his life, or he learns to live without his family. Because if he sleeps with someone else, AGAIN, I am gone.
And I really don't know even if he doesn't actually act upon it, how much longer I can listen to the torture of hearing him whine about not being able to do so.
I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, because I just really don't know what else to do anymore.
David and I are arguing, a small tift that has been brewing for days now at least, so I cannot say I didn't see it coming.
He is getting restless and discontent again, not with our relationship, but with the lack of additional sexual prowess that comes with it.
After repeated expression of the need to sleep with other women for the past few weeks, and my repeated statement that I won't tolerate it, his frustrations peaked and he started nit picking little fights for the last few days.
So last night he just happened to pick at an already sore spot and got me to bite back, and so now we are fighting.
I know it is ridiculous and will blow over, but the fact remains I sometimes question how much longer I can stand living my life watching someone constantly want something that I cannot give him.
I know he won't be able to have a healthy, happy, family-life marriage like he wants to have with anyone if he also wants to have that sex life on the side. He wants kids, he loves kids, he wants a family - but I don't know of any woman who would subject their family to that sort of life. I just can't bring myself to do it, and I am more patient and willing to comprimise than most on subjects such as these.
I guess he either finds a way to let go of his frustrations and learn to be respectful and have me be the only woman in his life, or he learns to live without his family. Because if he sleeps with someone else, AGAIN, I am gone.
And I really don't know even if he doesn't actually act upon it, how much longer I can listen to the torture of hearing him whine about not being able to do so.