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I feel so fucking awful.
I stepped on one of the kittens yesterday by accident...she pooped herself but she wasn't crying and didn't seem to be in any pain. She was playing with her brothers and sisters all night so I thought she was fine.
This morning, when I got up for work, I noticed her laying on the ground in front of Bill and Mirinda's room. She wasn't moving. I went over to check on her...She was concious and breathing, but she wouldn't get up to walk. I picked her up and placed her on her feet but she collapsed each time. She tried to walk but her forelegs buckled in and gave out. She wouldn't walk or move or eat or even cry.
Bill and Mirinda pretty much said that they wouldn't help me pay the veternary bill and that I should just let her die. We're taking the rest of the cats in today for checkups at 5:30 and they said that I could just wait until then to bring the kitten to the vet, but this wasn't an option. I knew if she didn't get help soon, she would die.
Kevin took me to work and called out today so that he could take her to the emergency vet. He just called me to let me know that she's had internal bleeding in her stomach and her body temperature is ten degrees below where it should be. The vet said that they weren't sure if the bleeding has stopped, but she has been growing steadily weaker all morning so there is a pretty good chance it hasn't. They want to keep her for the next twenty four hours and she needs to be hooked up to an IV. There's no guarentee they can save her.
I feel so goddamn awful. I shouldn't have gone to work today...I can't focus on anything I'm supposed to be doing and I haven't been able to stop crying. Everyone probably thinks I'm overreacting but how could I not be upset? She's a three week old defensless kitten and it's MY fault that she might die. Bill and Mirinda didn't even seem phased.
I'll never understand how anyone can have a lack of compassion for animals.
To make things worse, they're charging eight hundred dollars for the twentyfour hour observation period. I cleaned out my bank account just for the required half we had to pay up front. In other words, christmas is going to suck this year.
I stepped on one of the kittens yesterday by accident...she pooped herself but she wasn't crying and didn't seem to be in any pain. She was playing with her brothers and sisters all night so I thought she was fine.
This morning, when I got up for work, I noticed her laying on the ground in front of Bill and Mirinda's room. She wasn't moving. I went over to check on her...She was concious and breathing, but she wouldn't get up to walk. I picked her up and placed her on her feet but she collapsed each time. She tried to walk but her forelegs buckled in and gave out. She wouldn't walk or move or eat or even cry.
Bill and Mirinda pretty much said that they wouldn't help me pay the veternary bill and that I should just let her die. We're taking the rest of the cats in today for checkups at 5:30 and they said that I could just wait until then to bring the kitten to the vet, but this wasn't an option. I knew if she didn't get help soon, she would die.
Kevin took me to work and called out today so that he could take her to the emergency vet. He just called me to let me know that she's had internal bleeding in her stomach and her body temperature is ten degrees below where it should be. The vet said that they weren't sure if the bleeding has stopped, but she has been growing steadily weaker all morning so there is a pretty good chance it hasn't. They want to keep her for the next twenty four hours and she needs to be hooked up to an IV. There's no guarentee they can save her.
I feel so goddamn awful. I shouldn't have gone to work today...I can't focus on anything I'm supposed to be doing and I haven't been able to stop crying. Everyone probably thinks I'm overreacting but how could I not be upset? She's a three week old defensless kitten and it's MY fault that she might die. Bill and Mirinda didn't even seem phased.
I'll never understand how anyone can have a lack of compassion for animals.
To make things worse, they're charging eight hundred dollars for the twentyfour hour observation period. I cleaned out my bank account just for the required half we had to pay up front. In other words, christmas is going to suck this year.