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I'm having issues with God. And since he's put me on perpetual hold, I'm going to post my questions here just so I don't have to keep yelling at a wall.
- God is a god of love. Vast, endless, holy love. so, God, if you have such a deep well of unending love, why not show me some? I'm not saying that I'm not lucky. I am: I'm free from deformities (if you don't count hideous facial lesions and scarring), I have a dedicated and hardworking dad, two healthy younger sisters, and a mother supports me financially, and hey, I live in the land of the freakin free. There's no denying it, I'm pretty damn lucky. Gee, thanks God. Okay, God, you've provided all these nice things for me, now how's bout some nice heavenly father-earthly daughter loving? no? I've been a good girl. going to church every week, praying everyday for unselfish reasons.. .. not good enough? Okay, heavenly father, I'll teach Sunday school to give back to my church community... .. hmm, where's the love? Come on, God, let's feel some of that divine holy spirit everyone's shriekn about being filled with as they jump up and down like bunnies on ecstasy. Where's my share? Gee, God suddenly feel alot like a career obsessed parent who's only acknowledgement of his child's existence is the bestoying of material goodies. But God, I don't care about that stuff. If I can feel your love and be happy and content in that, that'll be enough for me... ... hello? anyone there? What, is the omnipotent and omniscient God too busy for me? God? the one who everyone says cares deeply for every single of one his creations? What? you run out of love or something?
- So, let's just say God loves me completely and perfectly but he just wants to be discrete about it. Okay, I have a God who loves me and is the king of all that exists. I'm sure he'll take good care of me, even if I don't know what he has in store. I mean, if my imperfect, mortal parents are capable of loving me and going to such great lengths to care for me, God's love has to be infinitly better, right? I mean, my human parents love me so much that even if I told them that I hate them and never want to associate with them ever again, they'd still love me. Imagine how much more my perfect, my immortal father loves me!!!.. .. oh, wait a minute... if i told God I hated him and never wanted to associate with him, he'd toss me into hell.. .. gee, what a bummer. So what's up with that? God's supposed to LOVE his children so why the heck is he letting Satan drag 'em into an eternity in burning hell for being bratty, ungrateful, and rebellious? that's what CHILDREN do! Human parents deal with that ALL the time! and yet most would never allow their children to be tortured beyond imagination for all of freakin eternity!!! SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE MUCH?!?!?!?!
- honestly, if he had such boundless love, you'd think he'd let me feel at least a little during my dark time of emotional need. I know, I know. Maybe God is using this difficult time to mold me into a stronger person for the future. I've been told that already. But I've also been told that God dearly loves all his children but lets them be roasted alive in hell for making a mistake. You've gotta wonder. If God knows all, sees all, and hears all, how the heck does such a loving diety stand watching and listening to millions of his babies scream in unending pain and despair as the demons of hell rape their immortal souls? Maybe it's just beyond my limited mortal understanding but I don't get it.
- God is a god of love. Vast, endless, holy love. so, God, if you have such a deep well of unending love, why not show me some? I'm not saying that I'm not lucky. I am: I'm free from deformities (if you don't count hideous facial lesions and scarring), I have a dedicated and hardworking dad, two healthy younger sisters, and a mother supports me financially, and hey, I live in the land of the freakin free. There's no denying it, I'm pretty damn lucky. Gee, thanks God. Okay, God, you've provided all these nice things for me, now how's bout some nice heavenly father-earthly daughter loving? no? I've been a good girl. going to church every week, praying everyday for unselfish reasons.. .. not good enough? Okay, heavenly father, I'll teach Sunday school to give back to my church community... .. hmm, where's the love? Come on, God, let's feel some of that divine holy spirit everyone's shriekn about being filled with as they jump up and down like bunnies on ecstasy. Where's my share? Gee, God suddenly feel alot like a career obsessed parent who's only acknowledgement of his child's existence is the bestoying of material goodies. But God, I don't care about that stuff. If I can feel your love and be happy and content in that, that'll be enough for me... ... hello? anyone there? What, is the omnipotent and omniscient God too busy for me? God? the one who everyone says cares deeply for every single of one his creations? What? you run out of love or something?
- So, let's just say God loves me completely and perfectly but he just wants to be discrete about it. Okay, I have a God who loves me and is the king of all that exists. I'm sure he'll take good care of me, even if I don't know what he has in store. I mean, if my imperfect, mortal parents are capable of loving me and going to such great lengths to care for me, God's love has to be infinitly better, right? I mean, my human parents love me so much that even if I told them that I hate them and never want to associate with them ever again, they'd still love me. Imagine how much more my perfect, my immortal father loves me!!!.. .. oh, wait a minute... if i told God I hated him and never wanted to associate with him, he'd toss me into hell.. .. gee, what a bummer. So what's up with that? God's supposed to LOVE his children so why the heck is he letting Satan drag 'em into an eternity in burning hell for being bratty, ungrateful, and rebellious? that's what CHILDREN do! Human parents deal with that ALL the time! and yet most would never allow their children to be tortured beyond imagination for all of freakin eternity!!! SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE MUCH?!?!?!?!
- honestly, if he had such boundless love, you'd think he'd let me feel at least a little during my dark time of emotional need. I know, I know. Maybe God is using this difficult time to mold me into a stronger person for the future. I've been told that already. But I've also been told that God dearly loves all his children but lets them be roasted alive in hell for making a mistake. You've gotta wonder. If God knows all, sees all, and hears all, how the heck does such a loving diety stand watching and listening to millions of his babies scream in unending pain and despair as the demons of hell rape their immortal souls? Maybe it's just beyond my limited mortal understanding but I don't get it.