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I've had such a suck ass week so far. If it keeps going like this, I may have to just skip the next couple days and lock myself in my room. So my blood pressure decided to stop existing yesterday morning and I fainted and spent the morning in the health center trying to convince the nurse that no, I do not have an eating disorder and yes, I do have a documented cardiovascular condition.
This morning was worse tho. I go to spanish, that's all good and fine. I go to health class, they say they're going to be talking about motor vehicle safety. At first, I was like "ok, ok, whatever". Then the presenter starts in on how every crash is somebody's fault because some stupid kid was doing something they shouldn't have been doing and if they hadn't been doing that, everyone would still be alive. And then he started in on crash pictures. I was getting more and more upset and uncomfortable, trying to just listen and take notes instead of looking. But then he started in on pictures of crash victims. He showed a teenage boy ejected from the car, bleeding from the head and I just lost it and had to leave the room. I think this is the time when I've missed my Charter people the most, when no one else is crying because it didn't happen to anyone else here, it just happened to us. I just really wish I was home and really need a hug.
This morning was worse tho. I go to spanish, that's all good and fine. I go to health class, they say they're going to be talking about motor vehicle safety. At first, I was like "ok, ok, whatever". Then the presenter starts in on how every crash is somebody's fault because some stupid kid was doing something they shouldn't have been doing and if they hadn't been doing that, everyone would still be alive. And then he started in on crash pictures. I was getting more and more upset and uncomfortable, trying to just listen and take notes instead of looking. But then he started in on pictures of crash victims. He showed a teenage boy ejected from the car, bleeding from the head and I just lost it and had to leave the room. I think this is the time when I've missed my Charter people the most, when no one else is crying because it didn't happen to anyone else here, it just happened to us. I just really wish I was home and really need a hug.