what to do?!?
Yesterday was pretty boring. Had classes...came back...did some work...watched a movie... and yeah that was about it. I'm really in an interesting situation here. I guess you could say that George and I are having "issues" Well, they're really not issues, but you get the point. I feel like I'm putting a lot into making this work, and not getting anything in return. Like maybe he could call me once in a while, or something like that. I know things aren't exactly perfect at home, but it doesnt take that much to call someone that you say you love so much. I just don't know what to do because I don't want to end everything becasue I really do love him too. I'm so confused. I really wish there was some kind of crystal ball that would tell me the right thing to do bc whenever I attempt to make a decision, I make the wrong one. ugh
Another problem looming in the horizon is whether or not I should go home this weekend. I know it's Valentine's Day and all, and I donno if I'm gonna have a Valentine (tear) Also, the weekends up here are pretty dull, but I'm really not in the mood to drive back and forth again. hmmmm... lets see what happens in the next two days.
Ok well I guess thats enough complaining for one entry. It's funny bc for the most part I write exactly whats on my mind and how I feel in this journal thingy. I dont know if it's good or bad that my feelings are so public, but oh well--lol
I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me............. sigh
Another problem looming in the horizon is whether or not I should go home this weekend. I know it's Valentine's Day and all, and I donno if I'm gonna have a Valentine (tear) Also, the weekends up here are pretty dull, but I'm really not in the mood to drive back and forth again. hmmmm... lets see what happens in the next two days.
Ok well I guess thats enough complaining for one entry. It's funny bc for the most part I write exactly whats on my mind and how I feel in this journal thingy. I dont know if it's good or bad that my feelings are so public, but oh well--lol
I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me............. sigh