Oct 08, 2004 22:33
Mixed
You controlled my heart for an entire year,
Manipulating me,
Leaving me wanting you, but never letting me have you.
A year later,
You ask me if I still like you.
"Why?" I ask,
"Because I still like you" you reply...
How am I to respond?
First thought in my head is "still"...
Did I miss it the first time you liked me?
You liked me,
But didn't want to be with me...I remember now.
I'll always love you,
That's a definite.
But do I still like you?
I haven't really given it much thought lately.
I spent so much time convincing myself that I didn't like you,
I don't even know how I really feel.
Honestly...
I don't.
I'm not going to just say 'yes' or 'no,'
It's far too complex.
There are too many mixed emotions,
Mixed signals,
Mixed interpretations,
It's just leaving me mixed.
All of my emotions are inside me swirling around like they were put in a blender on in its highest speed.
What am I to do?
What am I to say?
The hopeless romantic in me says to try to make it work.
I mean, this is what I wanted for so long...right?
But the logical side of me says it will never work.
It doesn't fit, it doesn't make sense, it's not reasonable...
So what am I to do?
As usual,
I DON'T KNOW.
And no,
"I don't know," doesn't necessarily mean 'no,'
It means 'yes' and 'no,' which means I'm not sure...
And I'm sure by now you can see how confused I am,
Sitting here thinking,
Thoughts all mixed up inside.
What to do?
What am I going to do?