Hmmm...

[island_gurl0988]

I think i'm pretty much ready to leave here...Things keep messing up. Oh well. I'm having mixed feelings; i really don't want to see joey anymore; seriously how can u love someone and do the things he's done...Ugh. But it's not his problem(Hah)! So i'll deal with everything on my own. Through everything and knowing him...he'll be fine. I was talking to him and he made it seem like i was being selfish, but i am thinkin about him too. There's no use looking back to the way things could have been. It scares me to think there may not have even been a moment of just me and him, how am i suppose to know he's wasn't thinking about someone else "Everytime i think about this crap i got so MAD", it's like being caught in the middle of something. Really though, i wish i could be with him and have everything be okay but... wishes don't always come true. I guess i don't have to wonder anymore. I just want to get out of here(1 month) lol, that would suck if i have to come back for another semester, i'll pray for that not to happen. By the way, thanx to Eddie and Emily. Anyways, i just cleaned the house so my dad shoudln't be to phsyco today, wooh!. I leave late june, my dad doesn't know if he's going to fly us out or drive. He's trying to make it sound better like we can go to the beach everyday...well hello, We're moving back to Hawaii what's the rush with the beach, and how can u really enjoy a day at the beach without ur friends. Hah! maybe hunter can meet me there because he's going to Cali for a long time too. Could be fun. This is like my diary, lol. I write alot. I'm waiting for my sis and kristin to get done so we can watcht this movie. Who was it...OH, i think Ashleigh and heather cried to this the (Win a date with tad ...) don't know how to spell that.
Damn it! i need to talk to Heather, i need that book. I haven't seen eddie in the longest time, his girlfriend is pretty cool, i only hung out with her once though. Well i'll write more l8er tonight considering my life is so eventful,(yeah right!),
~*Alisha*~