An interesting idea to think about.
I was leaving my class for today and I was thinking about getting some food (my school sells pizza and soda after school on some days), but then I passed by a poster for a GSA (Gay-Straight Alliance, aka a club for LGBT and heterosexuals to meet and hang out) meeting coming up this Thursday. I have heard about the group before and their meetings, but since my classrooms are so loud in the morning when announcements come on (they air on 2cnd period every morning), I ended up missing their first meeting at the beginning of the year.
While I was trying to remember this information and think of a plan to stay after school a bit to attend, along comes a friend of mine I know and talk to during lunch. He's a nice guy and I learned over time he's gay. No big deal; we still end up becoming friends and talking about simple things and mainly bond over drawing.
He tells me a little bit about the group and says I should come if possible. There's usually snacks for everyone to eat and some games to play. I told him I'll make it if I can and we part off, him heading off to go home and me staying in the library after school until my mom comes and picks me up.
It's where here I start musing over some things.
I have been questioning my own sexuality since around middle school; all it ended up taking was dancing with an older friend of mine who's a girl and things went Willy Wonka there. I ended up dating an older dude in my Intensive Math class (when I mean by older, I mean by I was 13, he was 16. It was the norm for kids being 14-16 and still in middle school. Well, at my school at least. |D;). We barely talk now, and over time I ended up crying over a crush last year in 9th grade that really shot my emotions and mood to shit for the next week. Afterwards in 10th grade, as of now anyways, I might have feelings for one my current best friend, who's a girl also.
Problem is she doesn't want to be labeled as a dyke (which I guess is some slang for lesbian? IDK.), and doesn't want a relationship with another girl.
Somehow, in the back of my mind, I have some hope she might lighten up and maybe I'll tell her before we graduate in the next two years??? I don't know. But, I'm kind of scared to reveal anything else about my sexuality; I already mustered up some courage to tell my family I might take a liking to girls. My dad says he'll support and love me no matter what; my sister and her boyfriend were kind of surprised and claim it's a phase I'm going through, and I got mixed feelings from my mom, claiming it's something to do with religion. Since then I dropped the subject and just kept everything to myself afterwards.
I could go on all day about this subject, but for now, it's getting late, so I must depart again until later.
While I was trying to remember this information and think of a plan to stay after school a bit to attend, along comes a friend of mine I know and talk to during lunch. He's a nice guy and I learned over time he's gay. No big deal; we still end up becoming friends and talking about simple things and mainly bond over drawing.
He tells me a little bit about the group and says I should come if possible. There's usually snacks for everyone to eat and some games to play. I told him I'll make it if I can and we part off, him heading off to go home and me staying in the library after school until my mom comes and picks me up.
It's where here I start musing over some things.
I have been questioning my own sexuality since around middle school; all it ended up taking was dancing with an older friend of mine who's a girl and things went Willy Wonka there. I ended up dating an older dude in my Intensive Math class (when I mean by older, I mean by I was 13, he was 16. It was the norm for kids being 14-16 and still in middle school. Well, at my school at least. |D;). We barely talk now, and over time I ended up crying over a crush last year in 9th grade that really shot my emotions and mood to shit for the next week. Afterwards in 10th grade, as of now anyways, I might have feelings for one my current best friend, who's a girl also.
Problem is she doesn't want to be labeled as a dyke (which I guess is some slang for lesbian? IDK.), and doesn't want a relationship with another girl.
Somehow, in the back of my mind, I have some hope she might lighten up and maybe I'll tell her before we graduate in the next two years??? I don't know. But, I'm kind of scared to reveal anything else about my sexuality; I already mustered up some courage to tell my family I might take a liking to girls. My dad says he'll support and love me no matter what; my sister and her boyfriend were kind of surprised and claim it's a phase I'm going through, and I got mixed feelings from my mom, claiming it's something to do with religion. Since then I dropped the subject and just kept everything to myself afterwards.
I could go on all day about this subject, but for now, it's getting late, so I must depart again until later.