Why am I hoping so much on something that will never be?

[islagurl]

Right about now I'm so tired. Tired from work. I'm just pretty much stressed out. And with feeling like shit, I just realized something. I realized that I'm hoping so much for something with someone who is obviously leading me on. Why do I think he's leading me on? Well just the beginning of the month I finally told the guy I was crushing on that I

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[lumy12]

*hugs* You need to forget about that jerkoff! I know, I know, easier said than done. :( I'm sorry.

[islagurl]

*hugs back* Thanks for the hug, I really really needed that. Don't be sorry. I know that's what I have to do. But it'll take time right. I have been trying to do that but it fails once I see him or he texts me. But I'm trying my best :)

[lumy12]

Yeah, it sucks that you still have contact with him, but be strong! He just wants to keep you hanging on as long as he can!

[islagurl]

Yes, I must be strong. I am trying my best. But that's the thing though, why is he hanging on to me? My friend recently told me to just give him an ultimatum. To choose between me or the single life. I don't want to do that though. I know he's not ready for a relationship and giving him an ultimatum will make him run away from me. Wow, I've never felt so hopeless in my life.

[lumy12]

Yeah, you're hoping he'll change his mind and quit jerking you around :(
The best cure for this is finding someone new to crush on!!!

[islagurl]

Oh gawd, lookin for someone new to crush on *sigh* that never works for me. It only cuts me deep. Like what my cousin told me, I should relax with the whole guy thing. When one guy hurts me I look for another. My wounds are never healed because I always jump into another guy. I should just stop with everything.

[lumy12]

Ah. "Relax with the whole guy thing" sounds like really good advice! I tend to get over-attached too early also. (er, I used to -- don't really date anymore!) *huggles some more*

[islagurl]

Yeah, looking for the right guy and getting attach is not good. Especially when you're really lookin really hard for that someone. I quit dating as well after this guy. It's annoying how you quit and then others comes along. But when you're lookin no one shows up. Weird huh. But that is an advise I will take. YAY MORE HUGS! *huggles back* ^^