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Heidi Montog changed my life. No, I'm serious. Here we have a woman who was beautiful when she started her career on reality tv. I'm going to be honest, I don't watch 'reality' shows, as 1. I don't watch much tv and 2. It seems the word 'reality' must be pretty subjective. So I never really saw her outside of articles on entertainment websites. Anyway, by most standards she was already pretty. But she was compelled to have so many surgeries they call her the real Heidi doll now. In one day, she admits 10 surgeries. And she still says she can't look at herself in the mirror. This showed me that being super thin and regarded as beautiful by many won't make the all the problems in life magically disappear, and really helped me to accept my own beauty.
My resolution this year is to love myself the way others do, and stop letting my head drag me down. 21 days in to the year, I think I've done very well so far.
This year is going to be so much happier for me than the last. My thoughts are clearer, and my heart is mending. A few months ago I would have said that there was no way I was going to be able to move on. I probably did say that. But it seemed the more in touch with myself I become, the more I grow to love myself for all of the wonderful things that I am, the less the ghosts of the past seem to haunt me. I hold no negative feelings, and I wish all the happiness in the world to those that are no longer a part of my life.
I have just 9 shifts left at a job I've held for a long time. I'm so very proud of myself for not freaking out about all the changes happening around me. I look forward to finding a new job, meeting new people, and what ever else may come.
After my Seattle vacation, of course!