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I finished reading this book called 'Siddhartha' by Herman Hesse the other day. It's about a man in India in the time of Buddha searching for enlightenment in his own way. He meets Buddha and recognizes him as a very wise and holy man, but rejects his teachings, and sets out to find his own answers, also rejecting the hindu philosophies of his father.
When I was done reading it, I had this weird feeling of peace come over me. I just felt like I could accept anything that happens to me, without worry or complaint. Then I smoked pot, and I felt like shit. The next day, I still felt fairly peaceful, but then I smoked pot again and felt like shit. Now, I've already cut down to only smoking once in a while, but I guess it's not good enough. For a while there, I was thinking that I could continue to smoke here and there, but I don't think it's going to work.
I would just like to announce my intention to stop at least until I get to the point where I can share a joint with friends every month or so just for fun, but not depending on it.
I have also not had a smoke in a week, and don't plan on ever doing that again, so I'll probably slip up and smoke a joint here and there, as quitting two substances at a time is really difficult, and I would rather quit smoking first.
That's about it. I just felt compelled to let you guys know what was going on.
When I was done reading it, I had this weird feeling of peace come over me. I just felt like I could accept anything that happens to me, without worry or complaint. Then I smoked pot, and I felt like shit. The next day, I still felt fairly peaceful, but then I smoked pot again and felt like shit. Now, I've already cut down to only smoking once in a while, but I guess it's not good enough. For a while there, I was thinking that I could continue to smoke here and there, but I don't think it's going to work.
I would just like to announce my intention to stop at least until I get to the point where I can share a joint with friends every month or so just for fun, but not depending on it.
I have also not had a smoke in a week, and don't plan on ever doing that again, so I'll probably slip up and smoke a joint here and there, as quitting two substances at a time is really difficult, and I would rather quit smoking first.
That's about it. I just felt compelled to let you guys know what was going on.