Fic: The Birth and Death of the Day (Sawyer/Juliet)
Title: The Birth and Death of the Day
Rating: PG
Summary: He'd do anything to give it all back to her, to fix it and make it right. He wanted to keep this life, but even more than that, he wanted to give it back to her.
Disclaimer: I do not own Lost. At all. I wish but alas...
Author's Note: Used for lover100, prompt #71: broken.
There was a time all too recently when Sawyer actually believed he could fix this, that he could fit Kate, Jack, and Hurley into their lives and no one would ever know none of them were supposed to be there. There was a time, it was just a few days ago, when he'd dared to believe it was possible to keep this life, this peace he'd found, this life he'd made with the woman that he loved.
Now, it was all falling apart and it was apparent to him that he could do nothing to stop it. Underneath it all, he was still a realist, and he knew when to call a loss a loss. And it turned out, so was Juliet. Because she was the one with the stones to say that it was over.
It felt awful, knowing he had to give up the house, the 9 to 5, the sleeping in on weekends and all the normal stuff he never knew he wanted until he found it. There was a time he would have run from this life as fast as he could, but he found dealing with the realization that he had to leave it all behind was a hell of a lot easier than watching the same realization hit Juliet like a punch in the gut.
She was weary from the beginning. She'd been crumbling little by little, day by day, ever since. She'd always been cool, calm, collected since he'd known her, but she was breaking apart inside, and it was readily apparent from looking at her for two seconds. She was giving up, and he hated it.
He'd do anything to give it all back to her, to fix it and make it right. He wanted to keep this life, but even more than that, he wanted to give it back to her.
But he couldn't.
The only thing he could do was keep her safe, and they weren't safe here anymore. They could have a home again, he could give it all back to her one day. But for now, they just had to keep moving without looking back.
Their life here was done. They had to start all over again.
Rating: PG
Summary: He'd do anything to give it all back to her, to fix it and make it right. He wanted to keep this life, but even more than that, he wanted to give it back to her.
Disclaimer: I do not own Lost. At all. I wish but alas...
Author's Note: Used for lover100, prompt #71: broken.
There was a time all too recently when Sawyer actually believed he could fix this, that he could fit Kate, Jack, and Hurley into their lives and no one would ever know none of them were supposed to be there. There was a time, it was just a few days ago, when he'd dared to believe it was possible to keep this life, this peace he'd found, this life he'd made with the woman that he loved.
Now, it was all falling apart and it was apparent to him that he could do nothing to stop it. Underneath it all, he was still a realist, and he knew when to call a loss a loss. And it turned out, so was Juliet. Because she was the one with the stones to say that it was over.
It felt awful, knowing he had to give up the house, the 9 to 5, the sleeping in on weekends and all the normal stuff he never knew he wanted until he found it. There was a time he would have run from this life as fast as he could, but he found dealing with the realization that he had to leave it all behind was a hell of a lot easier than watching the same realization hit Juliet like a punch in the gut.
She was weary from the beginning. She'd been crumbling little by little, day by day, ever since. She'd always been cool, calm, collected since he'd known her, but she was breaking apart inside, and it was readily apparent from looking at her for two seconds. She was giving up, and he hated it.
He'd do anything to give it all back to her, to fix it and make it right. He wanted to keep this life, but even more than that, he wanted to give it back to her.
But he couldn't.
The only thing he could do was keep her safe, and they weren't safe here anymore. They could have a home again, he could give it all back to her one day. But for now, they just had to keep moving without looking back.
Their life here was done. They had to start all over again.