Darky Darkersons

Mar 16, 2010 23:48

One of my favorite pastimes is attending a party and watching the conversation naturally shift my way. Although that last party didn't take any time to go there like that ride at Magic Mountain that goes up and then drops suddenly, straight down and that was merciful, since I didn't feel comfortable and had to leave. I didn't have time for the ( Read more... )

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expanding_x_man March 20 2010, 23:22:19 UTC
Very interesting post. My mother was a worst case scenario person also. She always reminded me of the many truly awful things that could happen say, if I didn't look both ways crossing the street or jay-walked (to this day I rarely jay walk and nervously watch my friends sprint across the street laughing at my timidity). Maybe that is one reason why I was generally the cautious one in any circle of hard drug users in my youth (twenties) and wanted to stop or always asked if the amount in the syringe might kill me. Again, laughter from my less cautious friends but most (not all) but most of them are infected with Hep C now, and some are dead, and some went to prison if even for a year, so I guess I may have been asking the right questions. I"m clean and still here, and don't entirely regret my crazy drug days, but I also think I was lucky - and it pays to be a little cautious.

So, as long as you are not overcome with anxiety, thinking ahead to the worst case scenario is not always a bad thing.

My mother certainly put some of that in me, yes. A strange combination of overly protective, and absolutely strict.

I have come to see that the world is a darker place than I may have thought even a few years ago. As so many things I previously believed in, have turned out to be not as I imagined. But, not all - and there is always an upside.

I think you will be fine studying psychopaths, who are very interesting and they need some studying. I want to hear all about it!

I've always been a pretty good judge of character, and have met some I have thought might be psychopathic, and my alarm bells go off very strong and I tend to keep a critical distance. They just give me the creeps. But, yes, they should be studied.

I heard something in a Buddhist lecture about holding the pain of samsara in one hand and the glory of the eastern sun (enlightenment) in the other and this being the height of human consciousness.

I think this might be the best we can hope for, and it is absolutely a beautiful, edgy and lonely place to be, but very rich in its perspective - -that life!

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