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ugh, amanda told me that i would be her last bf...ever and i kinda find it flattering, yet disturbing...i dunno, she puts a lot of pressure on me, like a lot, and also everyone telling me that long distances never work, its just so distressful and depressing...i dont amanda is having a ball being so far away either...she makes me so happy though and i love her lots, i am hoping that she doesn't give up or one of us goes crazy and shoots twenty people before committing suicide...but yea i am determined to get this to work and hopefully it will...its painful, this relationship is, imagine loving someone so much and not being able to see them, not being able to touch them, its pain, the perfect word to describe it, pain...it hurts me not being with her, it hurts so much, i cry like every night now maybe its cause ima puss, or maybe its cause love is too strong for this kinda of relationship i dont know honestly, and i hope she doesnt wanna break up with me...and it would be nice to see her at least once in my lifetime...fuck im like breaking down...i bet you never knew you had this much impact on me neways later all just sharing my opinions about myself....love all yall