meet the deadlines and enjoy.
I could never make it more complicated.
I started dating the guy again and I have a deadline of 1 month and 23 days till he leaves me for exchange and not even thinks about long distance.
Frankly? Long distance? Sucks. Never tried, never could do it. But at least he could have the courtesy to offer trying it. He doesnt. Do I care? Well, I do. BUT. That does not stop me from cheating on the guy with a friend. I was drunk, so that might not count in my book. But also that does not stop me from talking with my summer fling thing, who has just broken up with the girl he left me for. Ever heard the song "My life is a succession of people saying goodbye" ? I wrote that song. :) And lastly but most importantly, I wouldnt be devastated because a mutual friend told me "I know you are dating him but really. You are going to be much better with another him" Another him being my huge crush from last year, now one of my best friends, whom according to that mutual friend doesnt make a move on me because I'm dating him. This doesnt make any sense I know. I had to get it out though. I dont know how I made a joyful experience turn into such a complicated one. And is it really joyful? I know I could have fallen in love with him so easily, he's perfect when compared to others. But is he perfect for me? If he wasnt going away, would it last anyway? I dont know. But I'd have like to find that out. Shame I can't.
It was a nice experience though. Someone not from my usual circle. Someone different. Someone whom I can trust. It already feels like we are through. We shouldnt have that conversation.
Anywho;
Wait for me Germany, because when I come, I'm not going to sit and mourn.
I started dating the guy again and I have a deadline of 1 month and 23 days till he leaves me for exchange and not even thinks about long distance.
Frankly? Long distance? Sucks. Never tried, never could do it. But at least he could have the courtesy to offer trying it. He doesnt. Do I care? Well, I do. BUT. That does not stop me from cheating on the guy with a friend. I was drunk, so that might not count in my book. But also that does not stop me from talking with my summer fling thing, who has just broken up with the girl he left me for. Ever heard the song "My life is a succession of people saying goodbye" ? I wrote that song. :) And lastly but most importantly, I wouldnt be devastated because a mutual friend told me "I know you are dating him but really. You are going to be much better with another him" Another him being my huge crush from last year, now one of my best friends, whom according to that mutual friend doesnt make a move on me because I'm dating him. This doesnt make any sense I know. I had to get it out though. I dont know how I made a joyful experience turn into such a complicated one. And is it really joyful? I know I could have fallen in love with him so easily, he's perfect when compared to others. But is he perfect for me? If he wasnt going away, would it last anyway? I dont know. But I'd have like to find that out. Shame I can't.
It was a nice experience though. Someone not from my usual circle. Someone different. Someone whom I can trust. It already feels like we are through. We shouldnt have that conversation.
Anywho;
Wait for me Germany, because when I come, I'm not going to sit and mourn.