O yea, here it is again.

[ishmickbob]

Im trying to figure out whether Im actually happy or not and how long this confusing feeling is going to last. I think this goes along with the complexity of relationships, dating, and girls in general. Right now I just feel like using a quote from the wonderful Tom Delonge: "Girls are such a drag". And its true. I hate being caught off gaurd

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Re: so...

[ishmickbob]

I must first begin this reply by leaving a rude comment. You are a poon. And your pooniness is exaserbated by this poony comment. I understand that Im not going to find a type of love that hollywood portrys but, at the same time, Ive felt it, lost it and it sucks. It was comforting to me and something Ive wanted for a long time. As far as finding yourself in college, I was always under the impression that finding yourself was suppsed to be accomplished in high school. Atleast thats how it worked for me. Im going to continue to grow and learn as an indivdual but thats going to continue through my life until I die, so I think there is a bit of a difference there. Also, there is a reason why I put "dating" in quotations and Ill leave that interpretation to your discretion, knowing very well my past "dates". Further more, You and I know very well that without dating, love impossible because youve closed your mind to the preliminary neccesity. I know what needs to be done, I just want it to be done without the prerequisit, however impossible it may seem.

Re: so...

[bacardimonky]

wow you actually acknowledged my existence, i guess since it's not the weekend and you are not tremendously busy with alcohol and what not you have time for your pseudo-friends...well this is truly the last comment i will leave however you may reply...for you to constantly trump the phrase "finding yourself" and insert "growing" is rude and just shows how adolescent you really are, whats the difference? I dont think its fair for you to make the assumption, just because it happend to you, supposidly, that everyone has "found" themselves. Who are you to mock what is important to someone, who are you to say that "finding" ones self was suppose to be done in high-school, I think you are severly mistaken...how can you possibly find youself (truly) in repression? repressed by parents, teacher, confinment, "friends", and so many other factors...now that you're here in the real world you can truly yourself for what you are, not what people want or expect you to be. But ofcourse you're Zack so you've expirenced hard times and "stuff" when you were in highschool so you know yourself...actually i dont care to continue this conversation or really any conversation with you, its truly surmounts to a monumental waste of my time.

Re: so...

[ishmickbob]

Lets get a couple of things straight. 1. You need to get your shit straight before accusing me of disregarding your existence the entire weekend. I worked friday night then went right to bed. Saturday I did not answer your text because I was over my limit and it owuld cost too much. Not to mention it was saturday football, and however unimportant it is to you, it means a lot to me and I do not and will not answer anyones call or IM no matter who it is on game day, unless the phone is right near me. Moreover, I dont remember any more of an attempt to get a hold of me to find out what I was doing this weekend. I could be wrong, but Im sure you had the oppurtunity to call me from someone elses phone to see what I was doing, even though on a saturday, during football season you should already know. With that in mind, you could have also walked over here to find out what we were doing. A text message shows little to no effort to find out what we're doing this weekend. Furthermore, I had plans with Kacie already to go to a party of a guy we knew in high school, of which was exclusive (I even asked if I could bring a couple friends, having you in mind) but was told unless they are girls, no. This is another reason why I didnt get ahold of you to tell you what I was doing because I already hd plans that only invovled kacie in the first place. Justin, I dont know why you look for reasons to be upset at friends but you do. You know very well that you dont have to be invited over to be here and you know that if we were doing something exciting we would make sure to get ahold of you to include you. Im tired of always being accused of being a poor friend and to tell me that having a conversation with me is a "monumental waste of my time" may be one of the most insulting things youve said to me.
Secondly, how can you say "who am I to mock what is important to someone and to say when one can find theself, when you did the same thing. You said that college is the time to find yourself and I jsut said that I have found myself already. that doesnt make me better or worse than anyone else and that wasnt was I was saying. All i was saying was that i already know who I am. I was differentiating between finding oneself and growth because I think they are two different things. Or atleast theya re to me. Finding ones self, to me, is learning to find your personality, your likes, dislikes, exploring your own personality. I dont know if people have done that in high school or are doing it now, but I did it in high school. Growth is taking the things you found within yourself and learning about them specifically. Expanding on these personality traits youve found or likes or dislikes, having them grow if you will.
Justin, Im sorry that you try to find constant faults within our friendship and, for some reason, dont want my friendship, but I cant constantly deal with having to rectify our friendship and justify the reasons I didnt call you on the weekends. Some times I have other plans, some times I cant call back because of money. I dont know what else to say.