belated entry
Yea, so its 4 am and Im awake. Im at andrews where it seems to always be hot despite how fast the fan is going. I cant sleep while its hot. uncomfortable. So I guess maybe I should update since its been a really long time. Im home for the summer. It feels good to be here. Im going on a Cruise next thursday to the bahamas with the dad. Cant wait. We both need it. Him more than I. I didnt do nearly as well this semester as I did the one before it. I got lazy, but whatever. overall GPA still pretty good....I think. I love my job and might be getting paid $9 an hour next year as a supervisor. Thatd be cool. Damn drunken girls cheering my name for half an hour. lol. O, it never gets old. Sean signed a lease with me and cortney friend from fsu) and we're all going to be living with each other next year, which will be really cool. My mom is having problems watching me grow up/ is not coping well with my independency. Shes not happy with life in general right now and drags me with her. I wish I could do more for her, but I dont know what anymore. Vanessa called me the other week to ask if I wanted to go tp prom with her after having not spoken to her for a little under a year. Fucking reminders of how I fucked up. I told her no politely. Not her fault that I fucked up, she was a bystander, and now just a memory of my stupidity and immaturity. But you live, you learn, you grow and you move on. 3/4 aint bad. Ive been holding on to what was never there. And to think that I was so willing. Slowly but surely, Im getting over it all. It just sucks that it had to end in such a bad way. I guess its next to impossible to have a bitter sweet goodbye. After all the emotions and determination, its finally over. Although I had to erase it all from temptation, I still checked a few more times. And even though for a brief second, I would think some things are for me, I know they arent. I just hope we can eventually, finally do what we both wated to in the first place and be friends. This is my goodbye, despite how childish it may seem.
Other than all of this, ive been pretty happy with life. As a matter of fact, things couldnt get much better. Ive made some awesome friends, have an awesome job, going to be living with some awesome people in an awesome apartment. And I love FSU. I guess thats it. That damn Sir Winston Churchill was right. "If your going through hell, keep going"
Other than all of this, ive been pretty happy with life. As a matter of fact, things couldnt get much better. Ive made some awesome friends, have an awesome job, going to be living with some awesome people in an awesome apartment. And I love FSU. I guess thats it. That damn Sir Winston Churchill was right. "If your going through hell, keep going"