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Dear Journal,
Why do I keep fucking up? Seems like as soon as I build some momentum I'm just as ready to stop again. I'm so bad at rationalizing that the wrong choice can seem like a good one, even when I know it isn't right. Alas, Here I am back at the beginning once more, so I shall try again. There's nothing wrong with trying over and over and over and over... monotone repetitions can seem like surreptitious lies however, gotta work on variety
Making money.. I'm still afraid to call people I don't know. More afraid of calling people that might want to help me than those who would simply employ me. Getting a job as a 'data entry technician' sounds easier than calling a friend of a friend about helping grow plants. THEYRE JUST PEOPLE, WHO ARE MOSTLY NORMAL LIKE YOU, and me, me I won't look them in the eye.
SO please, journal, LOOK INTO MY EYE
i keep a knife on the good stuff
hold my kite and shake the dandruff
i know you're lonesome,
so bounce your eardrums
JOURNAL- stealing is feeling good, so I ripped off CAKE
i dont want a girl that watches TV
or a blind girl that hits on me
i want a girl who can play the guitar
i want a girl who will be my star
she would wear jean shorts and lean real cool,
while riding her bike and acting a fool
i want a girl who's not afraid to bite
and i want a girl who's awake all night
uhhuh
if you let me paint what i'd wanted
this is what you'd look like
isn't it easy to see?
-
what is attachment?
-being connected to something
-emotional attachment can dictate a reaction to a situation
-servitude
If I wrote you a story, and ad-libbed the details,
would you mind if it was gory, blood guts and entrails?
READ ME BOOKS
my medication is wearing thin
while your lies make my head spin
you wouldn't stop untill i died
turn and fly is what i'll decide
fly far away through time and space
tilted so on right wing grace
but when i land i'll stand and see
kindred souls are roaming free
this is their land as it is mine
and none of us can be devine
i'll open up without obstruction
so pick a story and tell it plain
Read then stop to answer my question
or i think i may go insane
Why do I keep fucking up? Seems like as soon as I build some momentum I'm just as ready to stop again. I'm so bad at rationalizing that the wrong choice can seem like a good one, even when I know it isn't right. Alas, Here I am back at the beginning once more, so I shall try again. There's nothing wrong with trying over and over and over and over... monotone repetitions can seem like surreptitious lies however, gotta work on variety
Making money.. I'm still afraid to call people I don't know. More afraid of calling people that might want to help me than those who would simply employ me. Getting a job as a 'data entry technician' sounds easier than calling a friend of a friend about helping grow plants. THEYRE JUST PEOPLE, WHO ARE MOSTLY NORMAL LIKE YOU, and me, me I won't look them in the eye.
SO please, journal, LOOK INTO MY EYE
i keep a knife on the good stuff
hold my kite and shake the dandruff
i know you're lonesome,
so bounce your eardrums
JOURNAL- stealing is feeling good, so I ripped off CAKE
i dont want a girl that watches TV
or a blind girl that hits on me
i want a girl who can play the guitar
i want a girl who will be my star
she would wear jean shorts and lean real cool,
while riding her bike and acting a fool
i want a girl who's not afraid to bite
and i want a girl who's awake all night
uhhuh
if you let me paint what i'd wanted
this is what you'd look like
isn't it easy to see?
-
what is attachment?
-being connected to something
-emotional attachment can dictate a reaction to a situation
-servitude
If I wrote you a story, and ad-libbed the details,
would you mind if it was gory, blood guts and entrails?
READ ME BOOKS
my medication is wearing thin
while your lies make my head spin
you wouldn't stop untill i died
turn and fly is what i'll decide
fly far away through time and space
tilted so on right wing grace
but when i land i'll stand and see
kindred souls are roaming free
this is their land as it is mine
and none of us can be devine
i'll open up without obstruction
so pick a story and tell it plain
Read then stop to answer my question
or i think i may go insane