(no subject)
I'm quite nervous.
Not because its exam season. I've been through so many exam seasons that they all kinda feel the same to me. There is the initial anxiety, there are the sleepless nights, there is the self-loathing but hey, I've somehow gotten used to such sensations already! It is faaaaaaantastic how much negativity human nature can adjust to.
So yes as I was saying - I'm quite nervous but not because its exam season. I mean I've already sat for one today, and there is only four more to go. Well three if I'm feeling particularly lucky because English happens to be one of the subjects. I loooove it when I have some form of English as a subject. It only means that I don't have to study for anything.
But yeah ANYWAY - I am quite nervous and not because its the exams. This will be the last time you hear that sentence.
After the exams, I finally go on industry placement. Few months back I was really excited about this prospect because part of me is itching to find out if I have what it takes to survive in the real world, one where your work will possibly be read and scrutinized by thousands. At that time, it seemed like a good idea.
But now. Now with internship commencing on May 8th, I am beginning to feel nervous. What if they don't like me? What if I have no friends? Will I have lunch alone? What if I'm not good enough? Bla bla bla bla, goes the Insecurity.
However, I told myself a few days ago to just quit being such an idiot. Its only for a few months, and it looks like the work is going to be interesting. Part of me knows I'm psyching myself out of nervousness, but right now I haaaave to be a picture of confidence or I will just get swallowed up by deadlines.
So wish me luck, for both exams and internship. And if any of you are interested, I'm interning at KLue, a magazine that I truly do like a lot. Lets hope I get to help put together Urbanscapes! OOooooH! That would be awesomeness.
Not because its exam season. I've been through so many exam seasons that they all kinda feel the same to me. There is the initial anxiety, there are the sleepless nights, there is the self-loathing but hey, I've somehow gotten used to such sensations already! It is faaaaaaantastic how much negativity human nature can adjust to.
So yes as I was saying - I'm quite nervous but not because its exam season. I mean I've already sat for one today, and there is only four more to go. Well three if I'm feeling particularly lucky because English happens to be one of the subjects. I loooove it when I have some form of English as a subject. It only means that I don't have to study for anything.
But yeah ANYWAY - I am quite nervous and not because its the exams. This will be the last time you hear that sentence.
After the exams, I finally go on industry placement. Few months back I was really excited about this prospect because part of me is itching to find out if I have what it takes to survive in the real world, one where your work will possibly be read and scrutinized by thousands. At that time, it seemed like a good idea.
But now. Now with internship commencing on May 8th, I am beginning to feel nervous. What if they don't like me? What if I have no friends? Will I have lunch alone? What if I'm not good enough? Bla bla bla bla, goes the Insecurity.
However, I told myself a few days ago to just quit being such an idiot. Its only for a few months, and it looks like the work is going to be interesting. Part of me knows I'm psyching myself out of nervousness, but right now I haaaave to be a picture of confidence or I will just get swallowed up by deadlines.
So wish me luck, for both exams and internship. And if any of you are interested, I'm interning at KLue, a magazine that I truly do like a lot. Lets hope I get to help put together Urbanscapes! OOooooH! That would be awesomeness.