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I wonder if there's such a thing as becoming too aware.
What I mean is that, you're so overwhelmed with knowledge on something and then suddenly your life becomes constricted and tight because you consciously know that certain decisions will lead to undesirable outcomes (possibly, even if its a 1 in 900,000 odds).
Take for example, breast cancer. My brain is so steeped with the knowledge that there's no such thing as being "too young" to have breast cancer, that I am freaked out by every bit of fatty tissue in my breasts that feels lumpy. Nevermind the fact that breasts are naturally lumpy, or it could be because my period is coming soon so there's tenderness in that area.
Nooo. I have to straight away jump to "OMG I GOT A LUMP GONNA DIE" thinking. Sometimes I think that if I were perfectly un-clued into diseases, I'd worry less and have a much more fulfilling life.
Anyway yeah found a lump, almost like a nub really but doc says check only after period is over. Kthxbai.
What I mean is that, you're so overwhelmed with knowledge on something and then suddenly your life becomes constricted and tight because you consciously know that certain decisions will lead to undesirable outcomes (possibly, even if its a 1 in 900,000 odds).
Take for example, breast cancer. My brain is so steeped with the knowledge that there's no such thing as being "too young" to have breast cancer, that I am freaked out by every bit of fatty tissue in my breasts that feels lumpy. Nevermind the fact that breasts are naturally lumpy, or it could be because my period is coming soon so there's tenderness in that area.
Nooo. I have to straight away jump to "OMG I GOT A LUMP GONNA DIE" thinking. Sometimes I think that if I were perfectly un-clued into diseases, I'd worry less and have a much more fulfilling life.
Anyway yeah found a lump, almost like a nub really but doc says check only after period is over. Kthxbai.