A thought
I am asking myself the hard 1st degree questions all over again. I hear tell that's a natural part of a 3rd.
Anyway, I was flipping through old journal entries the other day, and I found my Fool's Journey meditations. The Chariot and Strength especially wolloped me over the head with a clue-by-four, and it's no wonder why, in my current state of affairs. But I had one of those moments where I went, "Damn, I used to be smart. What the hell happened?"
Which makes me think I should repeat the Fools Journey exercise. It helped the first time, so why shouldn't it help this time, too. After all, the journey is never over. You labor from Malkuth to Kether, think you've made it, and the Sephira always say, "OK, you can have a breather, but God is still another floor up; here, meet Malkuth, he'll help you."
I feel dedications to ideas, but frankly, I wonder if my dedication to specific deities is really meaningful faith or just an unwillingness to change...I even question if a specific deity is needed at all to serve a hourney further up and further in. It's a hard and painful question. I just hve to remember that all of which I seek will be found within. It always has been, and always will be, even when the answer I am going to encounter is silence. Prickly pill to swallow, indeed.
But nothing will stop the train of holiday joy. Too much pretty around to argue about who or what it's for. Just revelling in comfort and joy.
Love to all!
Anyway, I was flipping through old journal entries the other day, and I found my Fool's Journey meditations. The Chariot and Strength especially wolloped me over the head with a clue-by-four, and it's no wonder why, in my current state of affairs. But I had one of those moments where I went, "Damn, I used to be smart. What the hell happened?"
Which makes me think I should repeat the Fools Journey exercise. It helped the first time, so why shouldn't it help this time, too. After all, the journey is never over. You labor from Malkuth to Kether, think you've made it, and the Sephira always say, "OK, you can have a breather, but God is still another floor up; here, meet Malkuth, he'll help you."
I feel dedications to ideas, but frankly, I wonder if my dedication to specific deities is really meaningful faith or just an unwillingness to change...I even question if a specific deity is needed at all to serve a hourney further up and further in. It's a hard and painful question. I just hve to remember that all of which I seek will be found within. It always has been, and always will be, even when the answer I am going to encounter is silence. Prickly pill to swallow, indeed.
But nothing will stop the train of holiday joy. Too much pretty around to argue about who or what it's for. Just revelling in comfort and joy.
Love to all!