fuck.fuck.fucking fuck.

[ish_twister]

i want to float away.
in my little bubble
that i feel trapped in.
by myself.
i want to float so far way
to a place where no one knows me
and just forget
about a lot of stuff.

i want a place to sit and think,
where no one is around for miles.
and i can just SCREAM
to release any sort of stress/depression
that is sitting inside me.

i want it to be easy to forget
but its not. nor will it ever be
i want to not think about you.
ever.
not happening.
i want you to not be nice to me
and not just pretend to be nice
because you feel bad for me.
i feel bad enough for myself.
please just don't.

i want people to understand.
i want to be able to express myself more clearly
i want to not cry in school.
i want to not cry so much.