I'm gonna close my eyes

[ish_ash]

I can't watch the time go by, I won't keep it inside, just freak out, let it go. Those are some words to live by. But in real life, notthing is done as easily as it is said. I don't really have much to say other than, I'm really depressed and sad. I can't even get the one guy I like to like me back. Or at least show any feeling for me or caring at

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[ha_none_for_you]

oh sweetee, i remember what that feels like, i'm so sorry that he has to be a shit that ya looover...*shakes head* that really bites...*shakes magic wand and makes everything better*

[ish_ash]

Thanks!!!
Your the bestest internet friend I've ever had!! You always make the stupid stuff a little bit better!
Thanks for being soooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooo ooooooooo nice. It really means a lot to me.

[ha_none_for_you]

awww sweetee, your so welcome... and no, its not stupid stuff, trust me, its something we all have to experience and it sucks shit SO BAD, and unfortunately theres nothing non cliche for someone to say and we all know the cliches but they give us no immediate comfort...big old pile of POO...if there was immediate comfort from any of this kinda stuff trust me, i'd letcha know!! just keep talking about it until you feel better, its better to do that than to keep it all in, even if your not talking to the person who should hear it (aka the boy) keep talking anyway, gets the frustrations and such out) i'm doing that right now with my boy, i bitch to him about his mother only the bad part of that is that she bitches about me to him as well...blah...fun fun...anyway, keep on truckin dear!!!

[ish_ash]

it's funny, because i do talk to him about all thats going on. I feel so weird when i'm doing it. I feel like i'm crossing boundaries because i shouldn't have feelings for a guy with a girlfriend. I feel like it makes me seem more needy, and that isn't what i want to seem like. I'm just a clingy person i guess. I don't feel like i got that love from my parents and now i despreately need it from somewhere and he's who I want it from. MAYBE???? I don't really know. I'm just guestimating??? I'm just saying that he knows exactly how I feel. And i guess there is nothing either of us can do about it.
It's really nice to know that someone is listening even if he isn't.
thanks sooo much
ash!

[ha_none_for_you]

yah i think thats exactly how i am, only i'm a cheater, rather than trying to get the love from just one guy i can't get everything i need from one person and so i look for the rest of it somewhere else...gets me into alot of trouble, so its a good thing you aren't like that, but i understand the love/affection/attention thing from someone other than your parents, i've been like that since i was 13, always needed it from someone else and that someone else was always a guy, girls have never been any good for me, always back stabbing and doing the girlie thing, KICK THIER ASSES!! lol..yah, but no problem listening, i'm great at it!! keep on truckin!!