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i got into barter!
i'm so happy.
SO happy.
SO ready to get out of here for three months and ACT.
they found housing, so i don't have to find my own housing AND i don't have to pay ANYTHING....love ya BTF, but thank god. i can't do that to my parents again. i'll be getting paid and i'll be acting in at least two childrens' shows.
if you want something, NEVER EVER EVER be afraid to go for it. ever. after 2 years of hoping to go to barter, i'm finally going to be a barter player...it still hasn't sunk in, so maybe if i type it out, it will...nope....still hasn't.
did i mention how happy i am?
because i am.
life is so sweet. if you work hard, you get what you deserve and i truely believe that now more than ever.
i don't mean to keep going on and on and on, but i haven't been this happy with every aspect of my life since last summer. i feel so accomplished just in being who i am and not being afraid of it. that's hard to do when you feel like you're judged for being yourself. and having bryan around through all of this has been sooo amazing. he's such a great person. he's been a barter player, so he knows how much it means to me to get this job and having him there with me through the whole process has been...i can't even think of the words. really. i'm the luckiest girl in the world...not because of the gifts i have, but because i'm FINALLY learning how to not take things for granted. i'm sure that sounds awful, but i've never appreciated anything i have. i thought i'd lost so much this year..."friendships", opportunities...but it was only to make way for even more amazing friendships and even better opportunities....THE opportunity. the one that i thought i'd never get because i didn't think i deserved it. well, forget that! i deserve it and i can't wait to take it for all its worth!
i've found my little place in life - in theatre, in love, in society, in humanity in general...and it feels so nice.