You can't see the baby because I'm fat! ha ha
So far being pregnant is horrible. I'm sick everyday, all day. I've been admitted to the hospital once already for dehydration. They couldn't find a vein though, so they stuck me with a needle 50 million times just for the fun of it. Now that I told everyone that I give two shits about that I'm pregnant, I feel completed and that I'm actually able to indulge in being pregnant. Before I thought everyone I knew would be disappointed, upset, or judgmental. Even tho most of my family told me to "terminate it now", I didn't, and I've let those words flow right out of my head as easily as they came in. I can't let people judge me and choose how I should feel about certain things. It's time to be a big girl and make my own choices.
Nate decided to cut off his dreads. For the almost two years I've known him I have never seen his hair shorter than his shoulders...EVER. I didn't think I'd like it to be honest with you, but as soon as I saw the outcome I totally loved it. He looks a lot better, healthier, cleaner and just overall gives his appearance a cleaner look. It makes me happy to see that he's making effort, more effort then ever, to clean up his act since he found out I was pregnant. There are so many things I could say right now but I'm even making myself sick talking about him.
Well it's Weds, and my mom finally said I could come to Thanksgiving Dinner. I had to ask though, which doesn't make it any better. I'm not sure why it takes her to the last minute to invite her pregnant daughter to Thanksgiving dinner. It's not like we are on bad terms again like we were when I was using. Heh, I miss having a family, and being invited to places. I guess i'm used to that with family and most of all friends. It's also partly my fault always wanting to be included... But whats wrong with that? hehehe
I'm having a baby and it makes me smile. I have my own place, and i'm not a loser without a job. Which, nowadays it's easy to be a jobless loser because finding a job has been so fucking hard ever since I turned 20.
I miss certain people and my mind can't help but wonder if you are happy. My guess is that you are, but I'd love to be able to see it. I really would.
Nate decided to cut off his dreads. For the almost two years I've known him I have never seen his hair shorter than his shoulders...EVER. I didn't think I'd like it to be honest with you, but as soon as I saw the outcome I totally loved it. He looks a lot better, healthier, cleaner and just overall gives his appearance a cleaner look. It makes me happy to see that he's making effort, more effort then ever, to clean up his act since he found out I was pregnant. There are so many things I could say right now but I'm even making myself sick talking about him.
Well it's Weds, and my mom finally said I could come to Thanksgiving Dinner. I had to ask though, which doesn't make it any better. I'm not sure why it takes her to the last minute to invite her pregnant daughter to Thanksgiving dinner. It's not like we are on bad terms again like we were when I was using. Heh, I miss having a family, and being invited to places. I guess i'm used to that with family and most of all friends. It's also partly my fault always wanting to be included... But whats wrong with that? hehehe
I'm having a baby and it makes me smile. I have my own place, and i'm not a loser without a job. Which, nowadays it's easy to be a jobless loser because finding a job has been so fucking hard ever since I turned 20.
I miss certain people and my mind can't help but wonder if you are happy. My guess is that you are, but I'd love to be able to see it. I really would.