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Is everything alright?
[private] Last night was the worst by far. One hour was all I could manage. The dream was so violent, I had to go take a shower when I woke up. Thank God for cold water. It woke me up, but I've been awake since.
I went to see him and he wasn't there. The one time I actively seeked comfort; to try and get some rest by his side and he was gone. Granted, there was a note, but it was short... almost impersonal.
I ended up on the roof the rest of the night, no more rested then before.
I have no idea why I ever thought I compete with him... because I can't. [/private]
[private] Last night was the worst by far. One hour was all I could manage. The dream was so violent, I had to go take a shower when I woke up. Thank God for cold water. It woke me up, but I've been awake since.
I went to see him and he wasn't there. The one time I actively seeked comfort; to try and get some rest by his side and he was gone. Granted, there was a note, but it was short... almost impersonal.
I ended up on the roof the rest of the night, no more rested then before.
I have no idea why I ever thought I compete with him... because I can't. [/private]