okay
Yes, I did get ahold of Marc. He called at 5 am. Apparently he had everything turned off because he wasn't feeling social, which is alright. I wanted to give him space but still he worried me... Anyways, it's all good now.
Tonight was a little awkward because he thinks it's weird that I watch him when he sleeps... Then I admitted that my mom did the same to me and it bugged me... Then I realized that I was doing just what my mom does... Which then made me realize that she does it because she loves me and that's exactly why I was doing it to him... I was really close to telling him that but I didn't. Instead, I didn't say much and left, crying as I drove home.
I keep putting it off, telling him that I love him... I re-evaluate how I feel every day. I want to be sure that its real. I think it is. I'm still scared to tell him though...
Tonight was a little awkward because he thinks it's weird that I watch him when he sleeps... Then I admitted that my mom did the same to me and it bugged me... Then I realized that I was doing just what my mom does... Which then made me realize that she does it because she loves me and that's exactly why I was doing it to him... I was really close to telling him that but I didn't. Instead, I didn't say much and left, crying as I drove home.
I keep putting it off, telling him that I love him... I re-evaluate how I feel every day. I want to be sure that its real. I think it is. I'm still scared to tell him though...