Got bored so i'm doing an entry...
Hmm... Christmas is coming soon, and with the snow today I wasn't able to go to the mall. But instead i looked online for stuff. I'm kinda hating christmas this year because there's one thing i really want to get, and it's not even for me. It's for my heart, my love, my one and only. She wants an engagement ring, and I really want to get it for her. I want her to be my mrs. I can see myself in the future with her, and our kids. I just really can't afford it. And I don't want to get her some cheap ring. I want the ring to be an expensive ring. Something with monetary and personal meaning. I've been thinking at least $10,000 and it has to be at least 3carats total weight or 2 carats clear perfect quality. I want it to become like a family heirloom. I want it to be the engagement ring that gets passed down from generation to generation, and tests the loyalty and honor of each person who recieves it since it has such value and obviously can be exchanged for cash. I really want to get her that kind of ring, but lets face it I'm a college student, and money doesn't grow on trees. Also I just don't understand why she get's so bothered by her ex. I still talk to my ex's on a regular basis, and when he calls her once after like months and months she flips out and gets scared that I'd think something about it. I love her to pieces and I honestly think that even if she were to cheat on me I wouldn't be able to let her go. And I trust her well enough to not be scared and worried that she'd cheat on me. I know she wouldn't. I just wish she'd understand that, and how there's nothing she could ever do that would make me love her any less... only more. I just really wouldn't care if she still hung out and spoke with her ex on a daily basis. I think it's essential that people stay close to their ex's. It lets them know how things are going, and if things are getting better or worse. It also allows you to remember that there are reasons to why your not with them and why your with a new person. It reminds you of the mistakes you've made, and of all the things you've done right. I personally still do communicate with my exs.
I was recently asked by someone how do you know when you're in love, how can you be sure of it?
I really couldn't give her an answer cause it's obviously a hard question, but here's my answer as of now. Love is when you listen to a sappy love song and it makes you smile (i.e. Yellowcard- Only One). Just listening to gives me this warm feeling all around my body. It's like an invisible embrace. Love is when you spend every minuite your not with her wishing you were, and every minute you are wishing it would never end. It's when you take the smarter decision instead of the risky more enjoyable one, just cause you know that it'll give you a better chance of living till tomorrow and seeing her tomorrow. It's when seeing the tears in her eyes make you want to smile and cry at the same time, because she looks so cute and innocent. It's when she crys over the little things (i.e. ripping the cover of the Pirates of the Carribean DVD she got you for christmas while removing the price tag and security sticker) and all you want to do is hug her as tight as humanly possible but you know you can't cause it would hurt her. It's when you try and act like it's ok that you don't get to see her one day, when in reality it like 1000 needles repeatedly stabbing you. It's like so much... I love her so much... my Annarose. I don't know what I'd ever do without her and how I made it this far without her.
here's a little song quote
Yellowcard- Only One
"Here I go scream my lungs out
And try to get to you
Your are my only one
I let go but there's just no one
That gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one."
I'm sorry for all the time I have to leave you, and stop hugging you. And I thank you with all of my heart for the fact that I have you. You're the only one who truly understands me, and loves me for me. And I'm sorry I'm not as romantic as I used to be. I try to be, but now that I can be me with you, I just feel so comfortable that, I feel no need to really show off. I love you so much. You truly are my only one. My heart, my love, my baby, my Annarose.
I was recently asked by someone how do you know when you're in love, how can you be sure of it?
I really couldn't give her an answer cause it's obviously a hard question, but here's my answer as of now. Love is when you listen to a sappy love song and it makes you smile (i.e. Yellowcard- Only One). Just listening to gives me this warm feeling all around my body. It's like an invisible embrace. Love is when you spend every minuite your not with her wishing you were, and every minute you are wishing it would never end. It's when you take the smarter decision instead of the risky more enjoyable one, just cause you know that it'll give you a better chance of living till tomorrow and seeing her tomorrow. It's when seeing the tears in her eyes make you want to smile and cry at the same time, because she looks so cute and innocent. It's when she crys over the little things (i.e. ripping the cover of the Pirates of the Carribean DVD she got you for christmas while removing the price tag and security sticker) and all you want to do is hug her as tight as humanly possible but you know you can't cause it would hurt her. It's when you try and act like it's ok that you don't get to see her one day, when in reality it like 1000 needles repeatedly stabbing you. It's like so much... I love her so much... my Annarose. I don't know what I'd ever do without her and how I made it this far without her.
here's a little song quote
Yellowcard- Only One
"Here I go scream my lungs out
And try to get to you
Your are my only one
I let go but there's just no one
That gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one."
I'm sorry for all the time I have to leave you, and stop hugging you. And I thank you with all of my heart for the fact that I have you. You're the only one who truly understands me, and loves me for me. And I'm sorry I'm not as romantic as I used to be. I try to be, but now that I can be me with you, I just feel so comfortable that, I feel no need to really show off. I love you so much. You truly are my only one. My heart, my love, my baby, my Annarose.