Im back...With news
Hello dear Fellows, and all those readers that dont read my stuff anymore..Probs koz im not there.
After LJ, i had a Tumblr acc...N then a AFF account...
The point is, Ive been...Trying to find the real me....
And then, this guy came in my life.
And he's wonderful, and Everything Ive been looknig for,
He changed my life, he put everything together, made every moment meaningful.
For the months i havent been here.
My studies have gotten harder....My life was shifting soo much...And everything confused the hell out of me.
I lost friends..Gained friends...Loved ppl...Hated other.
I tried...To get to know to this ..Thing called family, and this thing called love.
And another thing...Called religion.
I've never spoken bout the real me before. I'm muslim, born in a muslim family, live a muslim country, I speak Arabic, french and English.
I turned 15 this year....
And I stopped writing smut.
Because...I dunt find that pleasure anymore, and because, I generally love writing in English, I dunt want to write things bout artists without them knowing..i feel Im decieving them.
I love SHINee, They're my rolemodels..I respect them for following their dreams.
Because I once had the same, I wanted to sing, but I never had the support...Nor the means.
Then i fell in love with drawing...But just because this teacher, saw beauty in the simple dailylife we run.
So once I left middleschool, i lost interest in that too.
What I didnt stop doing..Was writing, smut was just a period of my life during last year.
But I wrote poems when I was sad...Journals when I was lonely, love letters...Everything...Because paper..Understands me.
Its like my own Live Coach...A way for me, to remember who I was, and plan for who I want to be...A way to remember all the ppl that meant smthin to me once in my life.
Im back..Because i realise...That I shouldnt write for the views...But write for the pleasure of it, for the peace I find in it...
Ill write stories...Mayb fluff and angst, anything, just no more smut.
The reason im writing this, is to tell you that I want to turn my blog to my own journal..Not just fanfics, but poems n diaries, share what I know...N mayb advise...