a comment i left on my sister journal i don't know what got into me i let my fingers do the thinking

[isawheaven]

i hate when we both are sad and theres no one left to turn to... all our friends say i'm here if you need me... but are they really??? they have their own shit to deal with... i wish we can turn to the ones we love and they say supposely they love us... why can't we turn to them??? why can't they have their arms open for us just to run to and cry??? why can't they mean what they say??? why the fuck do we have to turn to other people that aren't them??? can't they see that there are so many people that have never felt love in their life and they are so blessed to feel it... but the let it go... like the last hoe they fucked... when we are gone is when they will see how they gave up probably the best thing that could have ever happened to them.... we change our selves for them to love us forever... we do everything they want... and all they do is want more... and more... and never are satisfied with whats in front of them.... if they fell in love with us when they met us why do we have to change our selves to satsify them.... shouldn't they be satisfied with us like we are with them??? this is not fair.... it's not fucking fair... why should we shead our tears when they aren't the one wiping them... they wipe their ass with our feelings when other people are around... but when they are alone in there room thinking about us... they call... they miss us.... they love us.... only when they are alone... they should love us all the time.... they should be the ones coming to us... not us coming to them... we need to get off our knees... because we're here on our knees for what??? for them not to help us up and hug us... kiss us on the forhead and say they love us... this is bull shit... i don't want to cry any more... i don't want to hurt anymore... i just want them to love us like we do them... and they don't.... the one closest to you will be the one to kill you... the one that has turned their back will be the one to help you... if they don't want to give up their friends... don't give up yours... i think i wrote enough for now....
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