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I just can't get started today.
A woman in my department who had cancer passed away over the weekend and everyone is finding out as they are walking in the office and I just can't deal with hearing these little bursts of tears sporadically I can't think.
I can't help but think that one day it'll be my mom they come into hear about.
Ginny,she was so young, she had 4 babies, the smallest was 3. I will never understand why this shit happens to good people.
She died in her sleep, an aneurysm.
It really tries on my faith, and I consider myself to be a god loving person.
To not question the plan, how do you just accept this ?
I love my mother so much and this hits so close to home for me.
It's paralyzing, to the point where I'm short of breath.
I dont know how I would ever move past that loss.
My mother is the most important person in my life and anybody who knows me, knows how close we are.
I just don't know.
It makes me want to throw up.
I am a mess.
A woman in my department who had cancer passed away over the weekend and everyone is finding out as they are walking in the office and I just can't deal with hearing these little bursts of tears sporadically I can't think.
I can't help but think that one day it'll be my mom they come into hear about.
Ginny,she was so young, she had 4 babies, the smallest was 3. I will never understand why this shit happens to good people.
She died in her sleep, an aneurysm.
It really tries on my faith, and I consider myself to be a god loving person.
To not question the plan, how do you just accept this ?
I love my mother so much and this hits so close to home for me.
It's paralyzing, to the point where I'm short of breath.
I dont know how I would ever move past that loss.
My mother is the most important person in my life and anybody who knows me, knows how close we are.
I just don't know.
It makes me want to throw up.
I am a mess.