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It hasn't been the best evening for me.
One: I was supposed to be in bed over an hour ago. I'm exhausted due to trying to get my sleeping schedule back on track, but I can't sleep.
Two: One of my roommates decided to try and flip out over the status of the kitchen. Apparently me constantly unloading and loading the dishwasher (because I don't have anything else to do) is not enough. And because I'm so tired, I forgot to tell her about the massive accident I had with her rice crispies and the stove. I cleaned most of it up, but apparently not good enough. I fixed the bag and offered to buy her more but she said no. I think I'm going to do it anyway, just because I hate it when people guilt trip me. She thinks I stole her food. I'm a great many things, but not a food theif.
And I absolutely hate being told that it's not that hard to put used dishes in the dishwasher immediately after using them. I hate it. I know its one of my personal issues, which is why I've been doing the dishes constantly. But hey, leave one pan out on the counter over two hours and aparently its worth freaking over.
I'm really sensitive about this.
And three: At kabochan's urging to join her Naruto RPG, I applied for Ino, one of my favorite characters. I was rejected. My writing samples weren't good enough. Stupidly, this is the thing that I'm crying over.
It makes me think that perhaps I shouldn't become a writer after all if I can't deal with a fanfiction/rpg rejection, then how on earth am I going to deal with the guaranteed rejection of the publishing world.
I feel so stupid that this is the thing that I'm crying over and I know it probably wouldn't be as bad if I weren't so damn tired.
I really want to sleep more than three hours at a time.
One: I was supposed to be in bed over an hour ago. I'm exhausted due to trying to get my sleeping schedule back on track, but I can't sleep.
Two: One of my roommates decided to try and flip out over the status of the kitchen. Apparently me constantly unloading and loading the dishwasher (because I don't have anything else to do) is not enough. And because I'm so tired, I forgot to tell her about the massive accident I had with her rice crispies and the stove. I cleaned most of it up, but apparently not good enough. I fixed the bag and offered to buy her more but she said no. I think I'm going to do it anyway, just because I hate it when people guilt trip me. She thinks I stole her food. I'm a great many things, but not a food theif.
And I absolutely hate being told that it's not that hard to put used dishes in the dishwasher immediately after using them. I hate it. I know its one of my personal issues, which is why I've been doing the dishes constantly. But hey, leave one pan out on the counter over two hours and aparently its worth freaking over.
I'm really sensitive about this.
And three: At kabochan's urging to join her Naruto RPG, I applied for Ino, one of my favorite characters. I was rejected. My writing samples weren't good enough. Stupidly, this is the thing that I'm crying over.
It makes me think that perhaps I shouldn't become a writer after all if I can't deal with a fanfiction/rpg rejection, then how on earth am I going to deal with the guaranteed rejection of the publishing world.
I feel so stupid that this is the thing that I'm crying over and I know it probably wouldn't be as bad if I weren't so damn tired.
I really want to sleep more than three hours at a time.