Sigh de sigh
I can already see that this is going to become an obsession.
Today I was in SUCH a bad mood.
(sorry molly and yasie for taking that out on you. You came at a BAD TIME)
So okay, last saturday. Or was it the saturday before?
I get a bit drunk
I say a bit, I mean quite a lot drunk.
Drunk enough so that I can't actually remember all of the night.
WELL THAT'S A LIE
I remember all of it, apart from this window of about an hour
When I'm sitting on Sam's bed with Sam, and then suddenly I'm down stairs, Sam just said something like "I really loved her" and my eyes are filling with tears, then Sam's like "Why are you CRYING?" and I go "I don't know."
Anyway
The next morning he was like "you told me a lottt of stuff yesterday"
But wouldn't tell me what it was
Until about three days later
:|
Ok I just spent like three minutes considering whether or not I should tell you what it was or not
But sorry I really really really can't. I WANT TO but I can't.
Uhm anyway
Yesterday I saw him with Kath and Charlotte, as I said, and for some reason we were talking about Dipak. And Joe.
Kathleen was like "See dipak is sort of understandable, coz he was your first boyfriend, but JOE? And BEN?"
And I go "So is Sam like your Dipak?"
And then he started choking me on the bus. It hurt 8-) and he didn't let go until kathleen made his ear bleed.
THEN he was like "i'll break you later" and I go "can't you just break me emotionally?" (IT REALLY HURT OKAY?)
So he goes OH YEAH I CAN TELL KATHLEEN ALL THAT STUFF YOU TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY.
I thought he was joking.
But today he told me that he did.
Annnd yeah I was a bit crap about that.
Right, shall I tell you another reason why I'm crap?
(I told you I'd post things I regret on here. I can already smell it.)
Ermmm me and matt had an argument a few days ago.
Well I say an argument, it wasn't even that really.
Probably because he didn't notice I was pissed off ;)
BUT ANYWAY
He hasn't spoken to me since.
And. I dunno I feel unloved :')
That's all, for now.
Today I was in SUCH a bad mood.
(sorry molly and yasie for taking that out on you. You came at a BAD TIME)
So okay, last saturday. Or was it the saturday before?
I get a bit drunk
I say a bit, I mean quite a lot drunk.
Drunk enough so that I can't actually remember all of the night.
WELL THAT'S A LIE
I remember all of it, apart from this window of about an hour
When I'm sitting on Sam's bed with Sam, and then suddenly I'm down stairs, Sam just said something like "I really loved her" and my eyes are filling with tears, then Sam's like "Why are you CRYING?" and I go "I don't know."
Anyway
The next morning he was like "you told me a lottt of stuff yesterday"
But wouldn't tell me what it was
Until about three days later
:|
Ok I just spent like three minutes considering whether or not I should tell you what it was or not
But sorry I really really really can't. I WANT TO but I can't.
Uhm anyway
Yesterday I saw him with Kath and Charlotte, as I said, and for some reason we were talking about Dipak. And Joe.
Kathleen was like "See dipak is sort of understandable, coz he was your first boyfriend, but JOE? And BEN?"
And I go "So is Sam like your Dipak?"
And then he started choking me on the bus. It hurt 8-) and he didn't let go until kathleen made his ear bleed.
THEN he was like "i'll break you later" and I go "can't you just break me emotionally?" (IT REALLY HURT OKAY?)
So he goes OH YEAH I CAN TELL KATHLEEN ALL THAT STUFF YOU TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY.
I thought he was joking.
But today he told me that he did.
Annnd yeah I was a bit crap about that.
Right, shall I tell you another reason why I'm crap?
(I told you I'd post things I regret on here. I can already smell it.)
Ermmm me and matt had an argument a few days ago.
Well I say an argument, it wasn't even that really.
Probably because he didn't notice I was pissed off ;)
BUT ANYWAY
He hasn't spoken to me since.
And. I dunno I feel unloved :')
That's all, for now.