56. 153 icons: SPN, Star Trek, Castle, P&P, USA Network shows

[hsapiens]

110 Supernatural
10 Star Trek: TOS (Spock & Kirk)
10 USA Network (Covert Affairs, Psych, Royal Pains, White Collar)
8 Castle
15 Pride & Prejudice (BBC)
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153 icons, total

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[hsapiens]

Ah, Hils. I owe her so much groveling that I think there will need to be a new word to describe it. Poor Hils, left to be the one people turned to while my inner introvert, who's never very inner, was having Issues. That was shitty of me.

I don't think that I can properly explain going from 100% control of my personal time to having people going through my house (it was bittersweet; first to renovate for my father post-transplant to live with me and then afterwards for my mother to move here instead), relatives staying with me for extended periods, being the family contact for everyone, working a job with people I adore but there's no door on our bull pen, and then having my mother around 24/7 following my father's death...it's all too much and I didn't have the ability to deal with one more thing. I had nothing that was me; I couldn't even hide in the bathroom as one of them was still torn up for reno for far too long. Extroverts will not understand but I *NEED* time away from people every single day but had none for several years. When I hit the wall I had nothing left to give. I got through it but that's all I can say for it.

I'm slowly reemerging as life finds its new normal -- and things are better. My computer, like a phoenix, has risen again: I reinstalled Photoshop and have downloaded caps & textures again. I adopted two dogs; taking walks and frequent trips to a mostly empty dog park have given me some much needed "no people" time. My brother is finally able to stand on his feet again (real estate employment is far too volatile for my blood) and will be moving out so I'll have more room in my tiny house. I would make the same decision to take him in because I would never allow him to be homeless but it was a sacrifice -- and I know he's itching to be independent again. Especially now that Mom is here. ;) I genuinely like the people with whom I work and for the first time in my life, my boss at my paid job is super-competent; I have so much to learn from her. And from my colleagues. All great people. Just, you know, always THERE.

I have noticed how much less active fandom is than when I was last active. I'm sad to see so much less but since LJ seems to be indifferent to fandom on a particularly good day, I'm not surprised at the diaspora. Tumblr surprises me as its platform of choice but there's a reason I'm not a social media guru.

Thank you for your good wishes. I've thought about you over my hiatus, wondering how Chicago is treating you, what photos you're taking, what art you've been creating...I've missed you!