On the road again...
Sitting here taking a break at work and listening to Nickleback. Alot has happened in a week. On saturday I'll be moving over here near Chaffee and leaving my blue state behind. I'm not sure how I feel about the entire situation but I guess I don't have much of a choice. I'll keep as positive an attitude about it as I can. My parents and I can't live under the same roof anymore, we don't get along.
This has all been brewing for a long time but it kind of just erupted and the only way to make this wreckage errode away is for me to get some distance.
I still don't know what's wrong with me. I feel really shut down. All I'm thinking about is "I get to move, I'll set up things, play WoW." That's all I really want lol...I want a damn minute to play some games. I feel I'm all over the damn board. But I really can't get past the "I guess I'm okay" level on the positive end of things.
Why am I doing this? I guess the big reason is just because I have to. Do I want to? Beats me. Maybe I do, maybe I don't. But I need to do it anyway.
God, I don't know. I just feel depressed and confused. I just want to have a break from everything and everyone who's causing me drama. I'm so fucking sick of drama in my life. I want things to be quiet and I want everyone to stop pulling me this way or that. I don't think I'd be able to make it through this damn mess if it weren't for the help of friends that have proven themselves to me.
I'm just going to get through this, go to lunch, and tonight pack up the computer and everything before sleep. Then I'll be out the door at 10 AM when the guys from work show up to help me out.
Okay screw this post lol.
This has all been brewing for a long time but it kind of just erupted and the only way to make this wreckage errode away is for me to get some distance.
I still don't know what's wrong with me. I feel really shut down. All I'm thinking about is "I get to move, I'll set up things, play WoW." That's all I really want lol...I want a damn minute to play some games. I feel I'm all over the damn board. But I really can't get past the "I guess I'm okay" level on the positive end of things.
Why am I doing this? I guess the big reason is just because I have to. Do I want to? Beats me. Maybe I do, maybe I don't. But I need to do it anyway.
God, I don't know. I just feel depressed and confused. I just want to have a break from everything and everyone who's causing me drama. I'm so fucking sick of drama in my life. I want things to be quiet and I want everyone to stop pulling me this way or that. I don't think I'd be able to make it through this damn mess if it weren't for the help of friends that have proven themselves to me.
I'm just going to get through this, go to lunch, and tonight pack up the computer and everything before sleep. Then I'll be out the door at 10 AM when the guys from work show up to help me out.
Okay screw this post lol.