May 19, 2005 09:40
Hi girlies!!! I have missed you all so much! I haven't come here because I have been so disgusted with myself, that I couldn't not bear to write but I have returned now because I have finanly found my ANA again!!!!! I've missed her so much and honestly now that she is back for good, I am so much happier!!! She is the only one that can make me feel this good about myself!!! I love her so freakin much!!!!!!!
May 10th 143.5
11th 142
12th 141
13th 140
14th 139.5
15th 139
16th 138
17th 136.5
18th 135
19th 133.5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Okay so fine this is a shitty # but lower than I've been all year!!!!)
I am on mt freakin way to 130 then, 125 then 120 by summer at the beach!!
And I go to Malibu at the end of August, so I should be Nicole Richie skinny by then!!!!!
I have not been this happy in almost 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well I hope y'all are doing well!! I've missed you girls so much, but I just didn't feel right coming here, when I was such a failure for so long, I needed to take a break and find myself,.... and find ana again! God I love her!!!!!!!