Nostalgia
What am I, 12 years old again?
I've been taken back to my innocence today and on Hitler's b-day too. "L" it's like being given a breath of fresh air again after being suffocated by stuffy, fluffy new age " be-witch-demon" occultic icons for all of my latter years.....
I woke up early this morning, around 3:45AM and just couldn't get back to sleep. I finally got up and did a little writing for my new novel and then set out to search the net until boredom led me back to slumber. The first thing I see on-line is a news story about Debbie Gibson's latest stalker(and we all know there is no fan crazier than a current DB fan, no joking within the inside joke here), which led me to her un-official web-site's discussion forum.
You know, it's pretty damn bad when your own fan-site sides with the so called stalker over you. "L" The entire community there actually vouches for the guy she's taken a restraining order out against, stating that he is well known in the DB fan community as well as being well known to her(as evidenced by many, many pics. of the two of them together posted within the fan communities) and is all together harmless, really. The guy actually runs her overseas fan-club and has for quite some time. It seems all he did was knock upon her hotel room door(after a concert she gave that he attended) asking for more autographs for his over-seas fan-club. Whoah, I guess we should all string him up for that one. I mean, it's not like she's still at the Britney Spears uber-celebrity level, I can see how someone could think it might just be okay just to knock on her door.
She does claim he showed up also at her house though, yet that hasn't been con-firmed. She didn't answer the door to her hotel room and called the police. He slid a note under the door, saying they'd meet in TX again during one of her up-coming shows(of which he already has tickets). She apparently called that note a "threat." Then, she explained her concern using Rebecca Schaeffer's stalker/killer, Robert John Bardo, who also had her on his "hit-list", as the logical explanation for her security scare. I remember when he killed the _My Sister Sam_ star, saying he was mad at her for losing her innocence by filming a steamy scene in some flick about well....losing your innocence.... She was very pretty and I remember being very sad then. Guess, it's a good thing for Deb that he was imprisoned way before she did Playboy, if loss of innocence is his pet-peeve. "L"
Anway, I just about spit my coffee all over my computer when I read in the forum her fans saying: "Oh, dear, here she goes again, getting paranoid again, thinking someone is out to get her again." "L" I laughed so hard because to all of the DB fans in the know, we remember when she locked herself in a room, refusing to come out to perform, stating that people were out to get her." That was her nervous breakdown of the 90's. Maybe, she's sick of hearing about Britney Spears' meltdowns and decided she'd get back in on the meltdown publicity. Remember she "warned" Brit. The iconic illuminati brain-programming warned us all....."L"
Anyway, it gave me the laugh I needed to begin my day!
After my amusement on the DB fan-site, comcast sends out the latest New Kids on the Block news: their leaked new song and the Today Show interview. I thought "Why not this time?", as I clicked on the link. Of course, I had heard all about their re-union and new tour. I hadn't clicked on the new pic. of the re-united band until today. I do have to say they do look good. Why is it that men only get better and better looking with age and women get ....the opposite? The new song is boring, but I was impressed and amused that they actually rapped in some of it, just like old times. I think people my age are supposed to take our kids to their concerts now and I don't know.....maybe I will. Christian does love the Shushybyes. NKOtB wouldn't be too different really....well minus the puppet/plush costumes...."L"
My first tape I listened to over and over again was Michael Jackson's _Thriller_ album. It still makes me feel at peace. My first album bought by me for me was Debbie Gibson's _Out of the Blue_. My second album bought was the new Kid's first album. Then Tiffany's first. After that, I bought everything by DG, NKOtB, and Tiffany. Those were the "bands" of my generation; "our Beatles", as it's been over-said. My first concert was of course a NKOtB one. I saw them all 3 years they toured. I even had a New Kid's sleeping bag to use to camp out for tickets. I was 12 years old.
It looks like they might be successful with their comeback tour, given the hype from mainstream pre-middle age women that's already generating post comeback news. Everyone's talking about their tour, which is crazy, but kinda sweet, really. Good luck to them, really....Now, if they'd just team back up with tiffany(what she was there with them on tour before, why not again)and deborah Gibson, then so many just like me would be so there.....it's not like the gals are doing anything really other than playing for the "gays" and doing Broadway and film flops. It could happen. It should happen.
After already being thrust back into my 12 year old youth by the internet time machine, the television played the full version of Tiffany/Meatloaf's GoPhone commercial. Tif looked good and the full thing that actually showed a lot more of her was really funny. You-tube it up, really, it's worth a few laughs. I think I'm in 1986 overload now.....
I'm still editing b-day pics. and my myspace friend's album. Thanks to everyone who came out for the party. It was a nice, nice time and Christian had a blast! I don't know what was so wrong with my emotions before the party. Everything was perfect that night, good times, good friends, good family time.
Jeff's big promotion to lab manager, one step under the CEO of the company has him so happy and proud to be part of the business world. The money is better now, but still not what he made in nursing. However, since we both want new careers outside of the healthcare field, business management will lead him to bigger and bigger things in the corporate world. I'm proud of him. He has a lot of responsibility now, much different than in nursing. I love being a stay at home mom, but I will be glad to go back to school soon. I'm sure I'll return to nursing for a while, as I go to school and as I write. I really want to get into the chemical dependancy counseling realm for nurses. That is counseling nurses with chemical dependancy problems, using my past mistakes as a way to help others who are in the same shape. We are the generation of re-hab., where our mothers had therapists, we all go to drug re-hab., it seems. The next generation has rehab and life coaches. Anyway, I think I'll add to my courses and complete my psych. degree. it wouldn't take me that much longer, seeing that I already have so much of the coarses required. That's my game-plan. CD counseling and writing about the such along with my fictional works. I want to make my son proud of me.
We don't think Christian has autism anymore, at least not on most days, but we know he's about a year behind his age in speech and maturity. Christian is singing now(mostly Shushybye and Barney songs, all alien-baby language), stacking blocks, dust bunnies, books, in doorway tracks, buckets,on the cat condo, etc. He spins everything he can constantly and has quite amazing coordination for spinning cups, tops, plates, etc. His full body rocking to music, or in his stroller in public has pretty much decreased all together.
He's frightened still of Easter like candy(anything that looks real or stuffed, has eyes, etc.). He thought mommy was killing th Easter peeps and it took me 3 days to prove to him that the chocolate Easter bunny wasn't real, before he'd agree to eat him. Then, mommy had to kill him first and we had to pretend the chocolate pieces came from somewhere else. However, Easter went perfectly for the family, Easter egg hunt and all.
Christian refused to wear his Barney birthday hat(as I predicted, since he's now afraid of everything hat), but I did manage to sneak in a few b-day hat pics. of him, while he was Shushybye di-stracted. He's back to not being so frightened of the park swings and slides, though bath-time scares him now. Some progression, some regression, and we're still waiting for him to start speaking real words again. It's been a year now since I've heard, "Mama." He's being a little bit more affectionate, but still seems to be easily annoyed by touch. However, he thinks he has to have a book or a photo album to be able to sit in mommy's lap, so we pretty much keep him holding one as often as we can, which means he's learning that he likes it when mommy holds him.
His obsessive-compulsiveness is getting less in some ways, growing in some. He must have perfect stacks of blocks or dust bunnies in perfect alignment in a doorway track and throws a huge tantrum if anything falls out of his perfect stacking alignment. He's pretty much grown out of in-appropriate bonding to objects, but still keeps to strict daily routines. He loves to ride his tiny new bike(with training wheels)along the side-walk next to the grass, which is next to the street. He races the cars going by. He can now push cars appropriately and not just turn them over and spin the wheels. I think the bicycle racing pretend play with the street cars is helping him understand what a car can do.
He no longer thinks men are Halloween monsters and no-longer insists that every woman in the room other than me hold him, when visiting family/friends. He's not forcing kisses/hugs upon other children and babies as much now either. We try to up his social interaction times and of course we do intense speech therapy daily. He watches cartoons now without fussing, but still takes to anything with music in it more, even t.v. commercials most of all. He adores any live performance. American Idol is his must see in the adult mainstream world. He's going to be mommy's little musician, I just know it and I love him for it.........I love him for it all.....
Deidre
I've been taken back to my innocence today and on Hitler's b-day too. "L" it's like being given a breath of fresh air again after being suffocated by stuffy, fluffy new age " be-witch-demon" occultic icons for all of my latter years.....
I woke up early this morning, around 3:45AM and just couldn't get back to sleep. I finally got up and did a little writing for my new novel and then set out to search the net until boredom led me back to slumber. The first thing I see on-line is a news story about Debbie Gibson's latest stalker(and we all know there is no fan crazier than a current DB fan, no joking within the inside joke here), which led me to her un-official web-site's discussion forum.
You know, it's pretty damn bad when your own fan-site sides with the so called stalker over you. "L" The entire community there actually vouches for the guy she's taken a restraining order out against, stating that he is well known in the DB fan community as well as being well known to her(as evidenced by many, many pics. of the two of them together posted within the fan communities) and is all together harmless, really. The guy actually runs her overseas fan-club and has for quite some time. It seems all he did was knock upon her hotel room door(after a concert she gave that he attended) asking for more autographs for his over-seas fan-club. Whoah, I guess we should all string him up for that one. I mean, it's not like she's still at the Britney Spears uber-celebrity level, I can see how someone could think it might just be okay just to knock on her door.
She does claim he showed up also at her house though, yet that hasn't been con-firmed. She didn't answer the door to her hotel room and called the police. He slid a note under the door, saying they'd meet in TX again during one of her up-coming shows(of which he already has tickets). She apparently called that note a "threat." Then, she explained her concern using Rebecca Schaeffer's stalker/killer, Robert John Bardo, who also had her on his "hit-list", as the logical explanation for her security scare. I remember when he killed the _My Sister Sam_ star, saying he was mad at her for losing her innocence by filming a steamy scene in some flick about well....losing your innocence.... She was very pretty and I remember being very sad then. Guess, it's a good thing for Deb that he was imprisoned way before she did Playboy, if loss of innocence is his pet-peeve. "L"
Anway, I just about spit my coffee all over my computer when I read in the forum her fans saying: "Oh, dear, here she goes again, getting paranoid again, thinking someone is out to get her again." "L" I laughed so hard because to all of the DB fans in the know, we remember when she locked herself in a room, refusing to come out to perform, stating that people were out to get her." That was her nervous breakdown of the 90's. Maybe, she's sick of hearing about Britney Spears' meltdowns and decided she'd get back in on the meltdown publicity. Remember she "warned" Brit. The iconic illuminati brain-programming warned us all....."L"
Anyway, it gave me the laugh I needed to begin my day!
After my amusement on the DB fan-site, comcast sends out the latest New Kids on the Block news: their leaked new song and the Today Show interview. I thought "Why not this time?", as I clicked on the link. Of course, I had heard all about their re-union and new tour. I hadn't clicked on the new pic. of the re-united band until today. I do have to say they do look good. Why is it that men only get better and better looking with age and women get ....the opposite? The new song is boring, but I was impressed and amused that they actually rapped in some of it, just like old times. I think people my age are supposed to take our kids to their concerts now and I don't know.....maybe I will. Christian does love the Shushybyes. NKOtB wouldn't be too different really....well minus the puppet/plush costumes...."L"
My first tape I listened to over and over again was Michael Jackson's _Thriller_ album. It still makes me feel at peace. My first album bought by me for me was Debbie Gibson's _Out of the Blue_. My second album bought was the new Kid's first album. Then Tiffany's first. After that, I bought everything by DG, NKOtB, and Tiffany. Those were the "bands" of my generation; "our Beatles", as it's been over-said. My first concert was of course a NKOtB one. I saw them all 3 years they toured. I even had a New Kid's sleeping bag to use to camp out for tickets. I was 12 years old.
It looks like they might be successful with their comeback tour, given the hype from mainstream pre-middle age women that's already generating post comeback news. Everyone's talking about their tour, which is crazy, but kinda sweet, really. Good luck to them, really....Now, if they'd just team back up with tiffany(what she was there with them on tour before, why not again)and deborah Gibson, then so many just like me would be so there.....it's not like the gals are doing anything really other than playing for the "gays" and doing Broadway and film flops. It could happen. It should happen.
After already being thrust back into my 12 year old youth by the internet time machine, the television played the full version of Tiffany/Meatloaf's GoPhone commercial. Tif looked good and the full thing that actually showed a lot more of her was really funny. You-tube it up, really, it's worth a few laughs. I think I'm in 1986 overload now.....
I'm still editing b-day pics. and my myspace friend's album. Thanks to everyone who came out for the party. It was a nice, nice time and Christian had a blast! I don't know what was so wrong with my emotions before the party. Everything was perfect that night, good times, good friends, good family time.
Jeff's big promotion to lab manager, one step under the CEO of the company has him so happy and proud to be part of the business world. The money is better now, but still not what he made in nursing. However, since we both want new careers outside of the healthcare field, business management will lead him to bigger and bigger things in the corporate world. I'm proud of him. He has a lot of responsibility now, much different than in nursing. I love being a stay at home mom, but I will be glad to go back to school soon. I'm sure I'll return to nursing for a while, as I go to school and as I write. I really want to get into the chemical dependancy counseling realm for nurses. That is counseling nurses with chemical dependancy problems, using my past mistakes as a way to help others who are in the same shape. We are the generation of re-hab., where our mothers had therapists, we all go to drug re-hab., it seems. The next generation has rehab and life coaches. Anyway, I think I'll add to my courses and complete my psych. degree. it wouldn't take me that much longer, seeing that I already have so much of the coarses required. That's my game-plan. CD counseling and writing about the such along with my fictional works. I want to make my son proud of me.
We don't think Christian has autism anymore, at least not on most days, but we know he's about a year behind his age in speech and maturity. Christian is singing now(mostly Shushybye and Barney songs, all alien-baby language), stacking blocks, dust bunnies, books, in doorway tracks, buckets,on the cat condo, etc. He spins everything he can constantly and has quite amazing coordination for spinning cups, tops, plates, etc. His full body rocking to music, or in his stroller in public has pretty much decreased all together.
He's frightened still of Easter like candy(anything that looks real or stuffed, has eyes, etc.). He thought mommy was killing th Easter peeps and it took me 3 days to prove to him that the chocolate Easter bunny wasn't real, before he'd agree to eat him. Then, mommy had to kill him first and we had to pretend the chocolate pieces came from somewhere else. However, Easter went perfectly for the family, Easter egg hunt and all.
Christian refused to wear his Barney birthday hat(as I predicted, since he's now afraid of everything hat), but I did manage to sneak in a few b-day hat pics. of him, while he was Shushybye di-stracted. He's back to not being so frightened of the park swings and slides, though bath-time scares him now. Some progression, some regression, and we're still waiting for him to start speaking real words again. It's been a year now since I've heard, "Mama." He's being a little bit more affectionate, but still seems to be easily annoyed by touch. However, he thinks he has to have a book or a photo album to be able to sit in mommy's lap, so we pretty much keep him holding one as often as we can, which means he's learning that he likes it when mommy holds him.
His obsessive-compulsiveness is getting less in some ways, growing in some. He must have perfect stacks of blocks or dust bunnies in perfect alignment in a doorway track and throws a huge tantrum if anything falls out of his perfect stacking alignment. He's pretty much grown out of in-appropriate bonding to objects, but still keeps to strict daily routines. He loves to ride his tiny new bike(with training wheels)along the side-walk next to the grass, which is next to the street. He races the cars going by. He can now push cars appropriately and not just turn them over and spin the wheels. I think the bicycle racing pretend play with the street cars is helping him understand what a car can do.
He no longer thinks men are Halloween monsters and no-longer insists that every woman in the room other than me hold him, when visiting family/friends. He's not forcing kisses/hugs upon other children and babies as much now either. We try to up his social interaction times and of course we do intense speech therapy daily. He watches cartoons now without fussing, but still takes to anything with music in it more, even t.v. commercials most of all. He adores any live performance. American Idol is his must see in the adult mainstream world. He's going to be mommy's little musician, I just know it and I love him for it.........I love him for it all.....
Deidre