Another day on call. Another perforated bowel, this time with "Nord" Not Nord. Lol
Wednesday, January 4, 2006 \ Time: 8:40 P.M. \ Mood: scared. \ Song: Gas... \ Book: The List.
Ugh... I so want to write, but Obi is sitting right next to me and I'm afraid he's gonna ask. I made the font small and everything, but still. If he asks, what to say??? I'm writing something to my sister? That's private?
Get a text message from Jennie on New Years day, saying not to worry, rotations will get better 4th year. I mean, I hate some days, I can't stand the people, but over all I'm loving it. I actually think I won't enjoy being a resident or even a doctor doctor, like I'm enjoying being a med student, with intern, but not full intern responsibilities.
Speaking of interns... Like how they always come up to me to look stuff up... So one day, these 2 patients weren't covered. So she's going around asking everyone who has who, etc. She makes me look up some rad stuff. But before she goes to the cafeteria and asks who has it, and can whoever has him go to rad. She leaves. Dr. Adams is like do the interns do anything? No... He's like why chase us down when she could look up the info herself. Exactly... But then again, previously, there was a prob with everyone and their uncle going to rad. But at the end of the day, it's the intern's job.
Why do I ever write about it??? So Tuesday, both Eva and Brenda are here. They're not talking to each other for some reason. Eva cause Brenda won't. Brenda cause Eva won't. Where this all started, I have no clue. Anyway, at one point Brenda gets paged. It's for Eva. She can't even say her name, just motions to her. Seriously... This is getting ridiculous. Eva was like, to Ploy we're professionals. Ploy was like but look at her professionalism, as in not showing up / not telling anyone. Ugh. I'm getting sick of it all.
Then it seems like... Waiting for Tumor Board. Sunil, Eric and Brenda walk in. Sunil makes a comment it's like the sharks and the jets. Eva and Pam were talking to each other. Where do I fall in their eyes? I mean, later they found out that Pam can't stand her either. Then I see a group, in the middle that just doesn't care either. I guess I'm there. Then the fact that Brenda's been here, except when post call... I can forgive her.
Then Pam and the OR. Actually I think I've been in 7 procedures. Pam said she never scrubs in, just observes. I've scrubbed in for a majority of mine. Then when I said 5, she was like that's more than she observed. And she calls me a slacker.
Good God! What is it will ball scratching!?! First Obi and now this other guy next to me. Have no clue who he is, but he asked me about a pt we have. Lung path, not gallbladder, etc.
What were we talking about? Eric and Sunil keep joking about catching the g-a-y... Ploy mentions Mark wears like Jean Paul Gautier or something, to which Eric says it's popular with gay guys cause all 3 of those guys are gay. Lol. Then, I ask Ploy did he say Walmart or Target. He's a target man. Lol. But OMG... Trouble in paradise. Ploy is getting annoyed Mark is so focused on her weight. He made a comment if she gets to 132, she can meet his parents. If I were her... Bye bye. But she's all defending him in a sense, saying he doesn't know any better. He was somehow raised that way. Guys don't realize how much weight is an issue with women. But then I'm thinking... I mean, yeah I say I'd dump him, but if I loved him, would I really? I guess I don't really love him... Lol. She called him an asshole. She wanted to text message him with that. She was kinda scared. I so would have done it. She eventually did. No response to my knowledge. Ploy then made a comment to him when they first started dating, that she's not the type of girl he usually likes, why is he pursuing her. She's not the typical asian girl. So what is his type? Then the whole weight thing... He saw me at my skinniest in a long time. Lol.
Flip nurse, wished me Happy New Year. Did I at least eat Filipino food? How can I not!?! Seriously? I almost had the urge to tell her I ate dinuguan, but we didn't serve that. I guess, compared to like Queens, we have a more americanized spread. Lumpia of course, some sort of pancit. The big sandwich...
Adams kept asking people their new years eve plans. Going to clubs, etc... I mean, I guess cause I'm at home. But I'm getting the feeling I spend way too much time with my family. Not that I don't like them. Just... I mean, they are all I have. They are my friends as well. And considering I barely see / talk to them, that's sad... Like how was your weekend? Same as every... I went to the mall with my family...
Dr. Adams said my mug was classy... It's a Disney mug with all the old movies drawn tastefully. I love that mug...
My Space... Found out 1 class mate started in med school, 2004? NorthWestern. Then another. He's into music. One comment calls him a future brother in law. He's straight!?! But then I was thinking, not necessarily...
On call today. I hate having the pager, especially with a slacker, like Obi. I gave it to him at first, then later he gives it to me. I can hold it during the day, he at night. When they all signed out and left, I hand it to him. Not yet. Ew... Yeah, he annoys me. I mean, Eva doesn't annoy me that much. But lets see if that changes when I'm on call with her again. She still likes me for some reason.
Then Obi was asking me about one of his patients. Like what did they do to her? Lap... I mean, he was talking about something down her throat. Oh... She was intubated. I guess she was before, but they did it again cause they fluid overloaded her. Oh... I didn't know that... Was he in rounds? Did he read the chart???
Then he asked me what the difference between active and passive immunity was. I said... Active is when you get infected with the disease. Passive is like a vaccine, where you just get the Abs. Is that right? He's like how do you get it that fast. Yeah... That surprised me. But then again... I didn't want to say it was easy. But normally... I'm slow. I need a chance to think it out. And most of the time, I just know the answer, but I can't explain to you why it is the answer.
Eric and his Qs... He found out somewhere than in the 80s the turks used agent orange against the greeks. And you know who grew up in Greece... He then brings up to Dr. Adams, he asked Dimitry if he grew up near Chernoble. Yes... Dr. Adams was cracking up! He's like I would have loved to see that. Then I posed a Q to him... Which he didn't answer... Supposedly a hot dog eating contest is considered a sport. I was like, so you consider cheer leading a sport??? He just went into how a lot of guys go into it just to grab some booty.
Oh yeah... I mean, yeah, we have white people, but... I mean, there's me (Flip), Ploy (Thai), 3 Indians (Sunil, and the Lees) Brenda (Spanish), Eva (Greek) Pam (Jewish / Columbian), Eric (born in Israel). I mean, the only white bread American is Chris. I came to that realization yesterday. Yikes. Lol. I forgot Obi. Nigerian.
Was sick yesterday. I think it's from sleeping in the resident's on call room. I felt congested that night. Felt like crap the next day I was in. Last night... I slept at like 7. Woke up just before 11. Finished my laundry. Then I couldn't get to sleep at all. I set my alarm at 3:30, cause I hate waking up just when I have to wake up. Anyway, that's the time I practically got to sleep. Didn't get out of bed will 5:15. Left at 6. Didn't get in till like 6:45. Everyone was there, but for some reason they hadn't started rounds yet.
Obi just found out the gay sex happening in murder row... He's like... Oh that makes sense, I've seen condoms there. EW!!! He then started questioning me on the gay lifestyle like I'm an expert or something... He's like have you ever experimented. Ew... That's not even an ew to the though, just to the fact that he would ask that. I get the vibe he just asks things... Like he was asking Chaudry all about her arranged marriage... Asking about what if she wants a divorce, does she love him, etc, etc.
Thursday, January 5, 2006 \ Time: 1:47 A.M. \ Mood: cranky.
OMG... I can't stand Obi right now. Freaking... I know we were awoken, but seriously... He's like stupid and it's annoying me. Freaking asking what IVF means, R/O, etc, etc. Then he's trying to explain to me how to copy and paste the list. And I'm saying if we sort... Then don't sort. Whatever. I'm just trying to make things easier.
Then the fact that... We asked Dimitry if we can sleep in the on call room. Sure. Then, he's studying. Tells me to sleep. So go to the room. I'm like what if someone comes... He's like they have to let you sleep. No they don't... Anyway, I reluctantly sleep, he goes back to study. An hour later... Excuse me. [ A female intern comes into the male intern room... ] You can't sleep here. So I get up. See Obi in the hall. I'm already pissed at him for that.
Sleep in the library. 1:30 something... Page to the ER. Perf bowel again. Get up, add people. Do it now? Lazy bastard, literally. He's too lazy to update the list now, then he volunteered to get the info when I said I would. He's calling back the info sounding unsure.. Yeah... I don't trust him. And it's driving me insane. He's coming back soon...
Written post call
Time line... So I'm pretty much ready to sleep by 10:30. Obi brings me to the room. 11:45. I'm awoken, but the female intern. Back to library. 1:30, paged to the ER. Back to sleep at 2. Wake up at a few pages... Apparently I slept though a page for a code. Not a pt on surg though. Interns are required to go... Lol. At one point, she was talking to someone in... hindi? I'm guessing there were a few 4 letter hindi words in there. Lol. Anyway, even when I slept like a log through some... I'm really tired. I don't even know why I'm awake now.
Anyway, the call to the ER. Some woman perfed. Yelling asks if we want to scrub in. Obi immediately said no. Honestly... I know it was like 2AM when they were expecting to do it, would have been tired as hell. Last perf I was in lasted 3 hours. We had names to add to the list. I was mad at myself for not speaking up and scrubbing in when I wanted to. But looking back... Considering they didn't finish till around 6... Not even saying cause I'd be dead tired and would have no sleep. I can't trust Obi with the list. He was like, we don't know... Just leave it blank. Seriously, work a little!
When we saw the pt, who was now in the ICU. Adam's like who were the students on call last night. Obi and I raise our hands. He's like, great work, but you could have sorted it... I then say, when I checked the ICU for vitals she was still in the OR. Yelling backed me up and said they weren't out till 6. He's like oh... Nice job. How did you print? Shook the toner. Nice job. :) Anyway, over all I like how he likes to build you up, then tear you down. At least I had a legitimate excuse.
Then, because I'm post call. I had a coffee, nothing to eat. Stayed for the breakfast convo. Get up to leave, say my goodbyes. Hey! You can't leave. Lol. I know, I know... Honestly I think the only person that would miss me is Eva. Then I feel bad... Another day with like 5 people and there are 22 patients. The no shows are no shows and 2 regulars gone... I felt bad to leave them. I was considering writing my notes on my crap patients. I shouldn't really call them that... But I memorized them. I could probably type it out, but I'm too lazy right now.
Oh yeah, and cause Obi gave me the pager, I got to shadow Dr Pike, the urologist for a while and helped / popped in a suprapubic catheter. Oh yeah... Why does surg in this hosp include gyn and Uro?
Then... Yasmin and Choudry keep asking me what year I am. I mean, I'm practically 4th, in terms of weeks, but not of cores. I feel it's a Q to guage my knowledge, but in a sense, it could also be a guage of my incompetence. I mean, yeah I can write a note, which I must say is crappy at times, cause I'm sick of it. I can do procedures, which I haven't been able to show. I mean, today a nurse asked if I was an intern. No... Oh, cause I need an IV. Had I not been getting vitals for the list, I would have gladly tried. I mean, I wanted to do one for Dima. So yeah... I don't know what they want from that questioning. After Yasmin asked me, she was telling me about warfarin, how we're gonna start it on some patient. During rounds that eventing she told me as if I were gonna order it. Uh... Can't do that...
Oh yeah, speaking of my great list... I wrote all this crap to do for that one patient. Everything from FU coags, elevating legs, Med to take over, starting warfarin in the am, the fact he's on a drip, etc, etc. I take good notes. I rock. Lol.
Anyway, I don't know what I'll do today. I really want to sleep, but want to do more than that. Clean my room? Play with my tapes? Shave my tongue?
Ugh... I so want to write, but Obi is sitting right next to me and I'm afraid he's gonna ask. I made the font small and everything, but still. If he asks, what to say??? I'm writing something to my sister? That's private?
Get a text message from Jennie on New Years day, saying not to worry, rotations will get better 4th year. I mean, I hate some days, I can't stand the people, but over all I'm loving it. I actually think I won't enjoy being a resident or even a doctor doctor, like I'm enjoying being a med student, with intern, but not full intern responsibilities.
Speaking of interns... Like how they always come up to me to look stuff up... So one day, these 2 patients weren't covered. So she's going around asking everyone who has who, etc. She makes me look up some rad stuff. But before she goes to the cafeteria and asks who has it, and can whoever has him go to rad. She leaves. Dr. Adams is like do the interns do anything? No... He's like why chase us down when she could look up the info herself. Exactly... But then again, previously, there was a prob with everyone and their uncle going to rad. But at the end of the day, it's the intern's job.
Why do I ever write about it??? So Tuesday, both Eva and Brenda are here. They're not talking to each other for some reason. Eva cause Brenda won't. Brenda cause Eva won't. Where this all started, I have no clue. Anyway, at one point Brenda gets paged. It's for Eva. She can't even say her name, just motions to her. Seriously... This is getting ridiculous. Eva was like, to Ploy we're professionals. Ploy was like but look at her professionalism, as in not showing up / not telling anyone. Ugh. I'm getting sick of it all.
Then it seems like... Waiting for Tumor Board. Sunil, Eric and Brenda walk in. Sunil makes a comment it's like the sharks and the jets. Eva and Pam were talking to each other. Where do I fall in their eyes? I mean, later they found out that Pam can't stand her either. Then I see a group, in the middle that just doesn't care either. I guess I'm there. Then the fact that Brenda's been here, except when post call... I can forgive her.
Then Pam and the OR. Actually I think I've been in 7 procedures. Pam said she never scrubs in, just observes. I've scrubbed in for a majority of mine. Then when I said 5, she was like that's more than she observed. And she calls me a slacker.
Good God! What is it will ball scratching!?! First Obi and now this other guy next to me. Have no clue who he is, but he asked me about a pt we have. Lung path, not gallbladder, etc.
What were we talking about? Eric and Sunil keep joking about catching the g-a-y... Ploy mentions Mark wears like Jean Paul Gautier or something, to which Eric says it's popular with gay guys cause all 3 of those guys are gay. Lol. Then, I ask Ploy did he say Walmart or Target. He's a target man. Lol. But OMG... Trouble in paradise. Ploy is getting annoyed Mark is so focused on her weight. He made a comment if she gets to 132, she can meet his parents. If I were her... Bye bye. But she's all defending him in a sense, saying he doesn't know any better. He was somehow raised that way. Guys don't realize how much weight is an issue with women. But then I'm thinking... I mean, yeah I say I'd dump him, but if I loved him, would I really? I guess I don't really love him... Lol. She called him an asshole. She wanted to text message him with that. She was kinda scared. I so would have done it. She eventually did. No response to my knowledge. Ploy then made a comment to him when they first started dating, that she's not the type of girl he usually likes, why is he pursuing her. She's not the typical asian girl. So what is his type? Then the whole weight thing... He saw me at my skinniest in a long time. Lol.
Flip nurse, wished me Happy New Year. Did I at least eat Filipino food? How can I not!?! Seriously? I almost had the urge to tell her I ate dinuguan, but we didn't serve that. I guess, compared to like Queens, we have a more americanized spread. Lumpia of course, some sort of pancit. The big sandwich...
Adams kept asking people their new years eve plans. Going to clubs, etc... I mean, I guess cause I'm at home. But I'm getting the feeling I spend way too much time with my family. Not that I don't like them. Just... I mean, they are all I have. They are my friends as well. And considering I barely see / talk to them, that's sad... Like how was your weekend? Same as every... I went to the mall with my family...
Dr. Adams said my mug was classy... It's a Disney mug with all the old movies drawn tastefully. I love that mug...
My Space... Found out 1 class mate started in med school, 2004? NorthWestern. Then another. He's into music. One comment calls him a future brother in law. He's straight!?! But then I was thinking, not necessarily...
On call today. I hate having the pager, especially with a slacker, like Obi. I gave it to him at first, then later he gives it to me. I can hold it during the day, he at night. When they all signed out and left, I hand it to him. Not yet. Ew... Yeah, he annoys me. I mean, Eva doesn't annoy me that much. But lets see if that changes when I'm on call with her again. She still likes me for some reason.
Then Obi was asking me about one of his patients. Like what did they do to her? Lap... I mean, he was talking about something down her throat. Oh... She was intubated. I guess she was before, but they did it again cause they fluid overloaded her. Oh... I didn't know that... Was he in rounds? Did he read the chart???
Then he asked me what the difference between active and passive immunity was. I said... Active is when you get infected with the disease. Passive is like a vaccine, where you just get the Abs. Is that right? He's like how do you get it that fast. Yeah... That surprised me. But then again... I didn't want to say it was easy. But normally... I'm slow. I need a chance to think it out. And most of the time, I just know the answer, but I can't explain to you why it is the answer.
Eric and his Qs... He found out somewhere than in the 80s the turks used agent orange against the greeks. And you know who grew up in Greece... He then brings up to Dr. Adams, he asked Dimitry if he grew up near Chernoble. Yes... Dr. Adams was cracking up! He's like I would have loved to see that. Then I posed a Q to him... Which he didn't answer... Supposedly a hot dog eating contest is considered a sport. I was like, so you consider cheer leading a sport??? He just went into how a lot of guys go into it just to grab some booty.
Oh yeah... I mean, yeah, we have white people, but... I mean, there's me (Flip), Ploy (Thai), 3 Indians (Sunil, and the Lees) Brenda (Spanish), Eva (Greek) Pam (Jewish / Columbian), Eric (born in Israel). I mean, the only white bread American is Chris. I came to that realization yesterday. Yikes. Lol. I forgot Obi. Nigerian.
Was sick yesterday. I think it's from sleeping in the resident's on call room. I felt congested that night. Felt like crap the next day I was in. Last night... I slept at like 7. Woke up just before 11. Finished my laundry. Then I couldn't get to sleep at all. I set my alarm at 3:30, cause I hate waking up just when I have to wake up. Anyway, that's the time I practically got to sleep. Didn't get out of bed will 5:15. Left at 6. Didn't get in till like 6:45. Everyone was there, but for some reason they hadn't started rounds yet.
Obi just found out the gay sex happening in murder row... He's like... Oh that makes sense, I've seen condoms there. EW!!! He then started questioning me on the gay lifestyle like I'm an expert or something... He's like have you ever experimented. Ew... That's not even an ew to the though, just to the fact that he would ask that. I get the vibe he just asks things... Like he was asking Chaudry all about her arranged marriage... Asking about what if she wants a divorce, does she love him, etc, etc.
Thursday, January 5, 2006 \ Time: 1:47 A.M. \ Mood: cranky.
OMG... I can't stand Obi right now. Freaking... I know we were awoken, but seriously... He's like stupid and it's annoying me. Freaking asking what IVF means, R/O, etc, etc. Then he's trying to explain to me how to copy and paste the list. And I'm saying if we sort... Then don't sort. Whatever. I'm just trying to make things easier.
Then the fact that... We asked Dimitry if we can sleep in the on call room. Sure. Then, he's studying. Tells me to sleep. So go to the room. I'm like what if someone comes... He's like they have to let you sleep. No they don't... Anyway, I reluctantly sleep, he goes back to study. An hour later... Excuse me. [ A female intern comes into the male intern room... ] You can't sleep here. So I get up. See Obi in the hall. I'm already pissed at him for that.
Sleep in the library. 1:30 something... Page to the ER. Perf bowel again. Get up, add people. Do it now? Lazy bastard, literally. He's too lazy to update the list now, then he volunteered to get the info when I said I would. He's calling back the info sounding unsure.. Yeah... I don't trust him. And it's driving me insane. He's coming back soon...
Written post call
Time line... So I'm pretty much ready to sleep by 10:30. Obi brings me to the room. 11:45. I'm awoken, but the female intern. Back to library. 1:30, paged to the ER. Back to sleep at 2. Wake up at a few pages... Apparently I slept though a page for a code. Not a pt on surg though. Interns are required to go... Lol. At one point, she was talking to someone in... hindi? I'm guessing there were a few 4 letter hindi words in there. Lol. Anyway, even when I slept like a log through some... I'm really tired. I don't even know why I'm awake now.
Anyway, the call to the ER. Some woman perfed. Yelling asks if we want to scrub in. Obi immediately said no. Honestly... I know it was like 2AM when they were expecting to do it, would have been tired as hell. Last perf I was in lasted 3 hours. We had names to add to the list. I was mad at myself for not speaking up and scrubbing in when I wanted to. But looking back... Considering they didn't finish till around 6... Not even saying cause I'd be dead tired and would have no sleep. I can't trust Obi with the list. He was like, we don't know... Just leave it blank. Seriously, work a little!
When we saw the pt, who was now in the ICU. Adam's like who were the students on call last night. Obi and I raise our hands. He's like, great work, but you could have sorted it... I then say, when I checked the ICU for vitals she was still in the OR. Yelling backed me up and said they weren't out till 6. He's like oh... Nice job. How did you print? Shook the toner. Nice job. :) Anyway, over all I like how he likes to build you up, then tear you down. At least I had a legitimate excuse.
Then, because I'm post call. I had a coffee, nothing to eat. Stayed for the breakfast convo. Get up to leave, say my goodbyes. Hey! You can't leave. Lol. I know, I know... Honestly I think the only person that would miss me is Eva. Then I feel bad... Another day with like 5 people and there are 22 patients. The no shows are no shows and 2 regulars gone... I felt bad to leave them. I was considering writing my notes on my crap patients. I shouldn't really call them that... But I memorized them. I could probably type it out, but I'm too lazy right now.
Oh yeah, and cause Obi gave me the pager, I got to shadow Dr Pike, the urologist for a while and helped / popped in a suprapubic catheter. Oh yeah... Why does surg in this hosp include gyn and Uro?
Then... Yasmin and Choudry keep asking me what year I am. I mean, I'm practically 4th, in terms of weeks, but not of cores. I feel it's a Q to guage my knowledge, but in a sense, it could also be a guage of my incompetence. I mean, yeah I can write a note, which I must say is crappy at times, cause I'm sick of it. I can do procedures, which I haven't been able to show. I mean, today a nurse asked if I was an intern. No... Oh, cause I need an IV. Had I not been getting vitals for the list, I would have gladly tried. I mean, I wanted to do one for Dima. So yeah... I don't know what they want from that questioning. After Yasmin asked me, she was telling me about warfarin, how we're gonna start it on some patient. During rounds that eventing she told me as if I were gonna order it. Uh... Can't do that...
Oh yeah, speaking of my great list... I wrote all this crap to do for that one patient. Everything from FU coags, elevating legs, Med to take over, starting warfarin in the am, the fact he's on a drip, etc, etc. I take good notes. I rock. Lol.
Anyway, I don't know what I'll do today. I really want to sleep, but want to do more than that. Clean my room? Play with my tapes? Shave my tongue?