2 entires... Did you bring any fruits or vegitables?

[isabel79]

Thursday, March 18, 2004 \ Time: 5:47 P.M. \ Mood: sleepy. \ Song: AC. \ Book: Dunno.

The "patient" we had in ICM was Franz Wallace... AKA the guy who followed me home one day, asked me to be his girlfriend... Made me paranoid about walking home... And this is in broad daylight!

Library to use the comp. At one point Adam sat next to me to check his email. He asked me when I have my orals. Monday, April 5th, 1:30 P.M. Basically he's really scared he's gonna fail. I think in a sense he's better than me... Like there are times clueless, other times, he know's what he's doing. Both times, lack of conficence but at least he knows. But then me... I mean, yeah I'm worried I'll do bad, but I'm not overly so. Maybe it's cause I expect to do crappily or I expect to not know anything / freeze on the spot, that when it does happen I'm not down on myself... Does that make sense?

I went to Kamal Vigilante... That's a cool name. Signed up for Harvey, a patient simulator. I asked if I can do it by myself or had to be with a group. He said alone is fine. But I have a feeling since it's the last week set aside for people who never did it, he may just throw a group in with me. He threw me in with a group tomorrow at 7PM... Yup... walk home get raped time...

Had 4 hours of Pharm. 1st was Tony Almeida. I have to urge to write on his evaluation he should go back to working for CTU. He's just so boring...
Time: 10:39 P.M. \ Mood: high. \ Song: Carlise Wheeling. \ Book: I'm too lazy...




Click on the pic to see... It's the choose life thing from Trainspotting...

"But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life, I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons! Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?"
Probably totally butchered the quote, but was doing pharm on Opiods. Morphine, Codine, Heroin, Fentanyl, Methadone, Buprenorphine, Naloxone, Nalterxone. Seriously, if I had Trainspotting... I'd so be "studying." That movie has actually helped me. I don't need to remember it causes constipation. I know about Naloxone now. Wonder if there were any inacuracies? Like did someone mistakenly cough?

Szarek gave the Pharm average. 69.7. The MPS was lower from last test, even when the average is higher. That doesn't make sense to me.

Been thinking about ICM. I noticed this girl would make faces at certain people when they were up. She probably makes faces at me. Then when Rodney was gonna call on me, she volunteered Vladimir. I actually knew what I was supposed to do to... I don't know what it is. I always remember the earlier stuff, but none of the later stuff. Like I knew CN I, II, III, IV, VI. But was clueless on how to do V. Looking back... What am I an idiot? Touch his freaking face! Anyway, long story short. I need to be shown what to do. Like really shown. All we do in ICM is be tested. I don't learn well under pressure like that.