I don't know what I should write...
I have a lot of thoughts, but I don't know how appropriate it is to write about especially post confession. Like I feel I should write down my feeling. Maybe not post it? Is just writing and complaining about something a sin in itself? Is it worth remembering? As I said, for me writing can be a memory dump. So... I don't know what I should do.
I thought I could sleep in. As I said, I haven't been going back to sleep in the AM and get up after my prayer, shower and go down to eat. I do my Lenten Spiritual read as I eat and surf the web till it's time to leave. I've been leaving at 8:15, hitting traffic and getting to work in time instead of on time or mostly late. Anyway, I had my blood draw today, so I got up regular time, did my prayers, brushed my teeth, threw on some pants and left. I brought blood work for 2 doctors so they had me fill out additional papers to release them to the other doctor and stuff, then they needed to separate the tests they had in common so it wouldn't dup in the reports or something? I don't know... But it took like 30 mins vs a few to do everything. After the fact I realized I forgot to take my medicine last night. Woopsies.
I was misgendered. Lol... When they were confirming my info the girl did a double take and asked me "Is this correct?" It said M. No... So she changed it. As I said she had to do paperwork for multiple doctors and the fact my MD listed me as male it auto populated into their system. I mean... Honestly I don't care. But it did remind me of when we got a claim rejected because they had the wrong sex with the insurance, therefore we couldn't bill for menstrual issues. The parents had to call the insurance to correct it and we had to rebill. If anything... I'd want to correct my medical records of a GYN I went to once. I didn't even see the MD and in his notes he wrote I was sexually active. Uh... No.
I then did my customary Dunkin Donut run afterward and got a Matcha Latte. It mentioned "espresso milk"... Is that a thing? Like in the sense it's not just plain milk, but coffee? Like if it was coffee, I wasn't aware. Even then it's not a sin... But yeah, I gave up coffee. I think Matcha is more caffeinated than regular green tea either way.
Went to the Mall...
Confession. There were a lot of people waiting when I got to Church. Well there were 2 people before me, but then there were at least 3 others after me when I left. It was Fr. Eric and he talked of the Holy Spirit and peace. Once again talking about God brought me to confession for a reason. I mean... I wasn't feeling anything during confessing, but then comes the whisper cry again! God is good.
Lol. While I was waiting for confession, Fr. I came into the church and screamed across the room at this woman. Being glad to see her. I WOULD DIE!!! TG he only whispers to me, which I can't hear half the time! HAHAHAHA!!! But yeah, I think he dumps 1st Saturdays on other priests.
I started Edmund Campion, a Life. It says it's a fiction telling of his life based on historical documents. It started with the death of Queen Elizabeth, but then flashbacks to when she visited Cambridge and Oxford? I'm only reading 12 pages a day on the weekends, so...
Dream. I don't even remember what was being said, but someone convinced me that my father didn't love me, so I was crying thinking this. But then... My actual memory kicked in and was like... Wait, he did love me and love me a lot. Like it's not even a question. So I stopped crying and went back to sleep. cc 7500centfish
The neighbor's house is on the market. It's way below the estimate. I suspect it's to sell it soon. Per Mom they're scheduled to move by the end of the month. Like I said... I'll be sad to see them go. In a way they were a support for Mom, once in a while bringing food. She still has a few more Filipino friends / former coworkers in the neighborhood, but not like this...
I thought I could sleep in. As I said, I haven't been going back to sleep in the AM and get up after my prayer, shower and go down to eat. I do my Lenten Spiritual read as I eat and surf the web till it's time to leave. I've been leaving at 8:15, hitting traffic and getting to work in time instead of on time or mostly late. Anyway, I had my blood draw today, so I got up regular time, did my prayers, brushed my teeth, threw on some pants and left. I brought blood work for 2 doctors so they had me fill out additional papers to release them to the other doctor and stuff, then they needed to separate the tests they had in common so it wouldn't dup in the reports or something? I don't know... But it took like 30 mins vs a few to do everything. After the fact I realized I forgot to take my medicine last night. Woopsies.
I was misgendered. Lol... When they were confirming my info the girl did a double take and asked me "Is this correct?" It said M. No... So she changed it. As I said she had to do paperwork for multiple doctors and the fact my MD listed me as male it auto populated into their system. I mean... Honestly I don't care. But it did remind me of when we got a claim rejected because they had the wrong sex with the insurance, therefore we couldn't bill for menstrual issues. The parents had to call the insurance to correct it and we had to rebill. If anything... I'd want to correct my medical records of a GYN I went to once. I didn't even see the MD and in his notes he wrote I was sexually active. Uh... No.
I then did my customary Dunkin Donut run afterward and got a Matcha Latte. It mentioned "espresso milk"... Is that a thing? Like in the sense it's not just plain milk, but coffee? Like if it was coffee, I wasn't aware. Even then it's not a sin... But yeah, I gave up coffee. I think Matcha is more caffeinated than regular green tea either way.
Went to the Mall...
Confession. There were a lot of people waiting when I got to Church. Well there were 2 people before me, but then there were at least 3 others after me when I left. It was Fr. Eric and he talked of the Holy Spirit and peace. Once again talking about God brought me to confession for a reason. I mean... I wasn't feeling anything during confessing, but then comes the whisper cry again! God is good.
Lol. While I was waiting for confession, Fr. I came into the church and screamed across the room at this woman. Being glad to see her. I WOULD DIE!!! TG he only whispers to me, which I can't hear half the time! HAHAHAHA!!! But yeah, I think he dumps 1st Saturdays on other priests.
I started Edmund Campion, a Life. It says it's a fiction telling of his life based on historical documents. It started with the death of Queen Elizabeth, but then flashbacks to when she visited Cambridge and Oxford? I'm only reading 12 pages a day on the weekends, so...
Dream. I don't even remember what was being said, but someone convinced me that my father didn't love me, so I was crying thinking this. But then... My actual memory kicked in and was like... Wait, he did love me and love me a lot. Like it's not even a question. So I stopped crying and went back to sleep. cc 7500centfish
The neighbor's house is on the market. It's way below the estimate. I suspect it's to sell it soon. Per Mom they're scheduled to move by the end of the month. Like I said... I'll be sad to see them go. In a way they were a support for Mom, once in a while bringing food. She still has a few more Filipino friends / former coworkers in the neighborhood, but not like this...