I reek of suicide

[is_it_withn_me]

you sure know how to make me feel like nothing
screaming suicide into my head
rushing the blood to my wrists so they can be sliced
Im going to smear my blood across these bathroom walls

I've tried so hard to please and I get in return this guilt and anger
I thought I had just about every disappointment to you tied down and locked away forever
but you seem to bring them back out ....the hate for you inside me.

You've killed me inside and now I need to make ends meet
I need to be dead all over in front of you
you did it for the last time...and Im doing this just for you

There are others who have it worse than me I know
but Im stuck in my moment now and I dont care
..Im selfish...noone answers my cries...this is selfish.

I'm stuck on my trip to hell now just to leave this one.
My life pounds through my head aching every move I make causing me to scream inside....
it was never worth it...theres noone to call...noone to catch my tears on there shoulder
so why should I say my goodbyes if noone will accept them
I shouldnt so im ending with these simple words scribbled across my paper ...laying in the bathroom floor...my tears will soon be red