Im stupid basically
So I've become what I don't want to be...
Im going nowhere and Im hurting all the way there...
I have a boyfriend of three monthes...
I found out hes been on meth for a while and I can't find it in my heart to break up with him because Im the only one who cares enough to help him get through somthing like this...
I wish I could walk away from him but theres also the fact that I think Im pregnant.
So Ive turned into this walking cliche of every other teenage girl who lets her emotions and low self esteem stand in the way of actually living a full life.
She falls in love ..gets pulled around by loving someone so much she cant let herself walk away...and ends up giving him every inch of her and then some.
The fact that my boyfriend does meth doesnt change the fact that I know he loves me because he shows it every day.
When your on somthing like that you dont think right...you dont know what your doing... and Im not justifying any of it because its wrong but hes now going to rehab...so I know hes trying.
I haven't finished school but theres no time limit so...yea
I still feel as if theres no point in my life right now except to focus on what everyone else needs.
I think thats the only thing keeping me from just dying.
Ive slipped back into being just as unhappy as before .... pointless
Im so tired...I just want to give up and sleep
Somebody talk to me...